My middle child came up to me last night asking if I thought we were headed towards world war III this year. It made me sad that she was so concerned. I told her to not worry about it, if there was something we could do we would do it, but for now there doesn’t seem to be.
And then I got to thinking what could I, we, any of us plebians do to counteract the war, greed, manipulation or our leaders? Even in cases where they do take us to war, what can we as common citizens do? You look back at most protests against war and they don’t seem very fruitful.
I thought back to the meditation project they did in Washington DC where over 4k people gathered to hold meditation for peace and it lowered the city crime level so drastically that it could not be considered a coincidence.
Maybe we need a worldwide love in prayer/meditation. It may seem silly but I genuinely don’t know that anything else would work. The people at the topmost caught in these cogs have blinders, privilege and power enough to seemingly not see or care for the consequences of their actions, for the consequences on the world, even the consequences of the psyche of their own people and themselves, their families. As if they had access to live in a different reality or world than the one they are seeking to devour, control and ultimately destroy.
But today I took a new stance with Divinity. I told the universe I was done. I am done playing in the labyrinth of good vs evil. I am done paying penance for my past mistakes (be they this life or others). I am past learning any more hard lessons in life. I simply do not want it, any of it anymore.
I just want to witness it all and flow within the stream of this life, easily and effortlessly towards the end to whatever awaits me next. I am officially throwing in the towel to the drama of this all. It’s not that I don’t intend on participating. That part is fairly inevitable. It’s that I am done with it being so difficult and painful. It’s not a matter of perspective or not caring. It’s a complete shift within and without I am looking for right now; not based on any tomorrow’s….. not waiting until “after” this period, or when possible, or when things settle down, not anything but right NOW!!!
I want to witness the divine, the sublime, the beauty that we all came from and will reach again. I am here to do that and I am done with the smoke and mirrors of all the rest. It could all end today anyway, right? We don’t seem meant to know. These right here are my new terms and conditions. With however many breaths I have left, I want them to be focused on that which is the truth, my truth, this dance with that which is beyond space and time, beyond good and bad, beyond the material comforts and human entrapments and melodramas we glomp onto so readily.
The time has come to set that all aside. I’ve seen enough, lived enough of it. A new time has come. An awakening of sorts beyond the physicality of this mortal entrapment I find myself in. Beyond the restrictions we lay upon ourselves there is a frame of thought of looking past the minutiae to that which our soul connects with. That which we can connect to at any moment and in any place within ourselves and without. I am done with the farce of everything else. I really am.