I’m treating myself to an hour and a half massage next week. It will be my first long massage. I desperately need it!! When my boss asked me to work 5 full shifts I was like sure, no problem. For starters because she had accommodated my immediate request for Thanksgiving week off when she hired me and also because I’d be leaving her in a bind saying otherwise.
I didn’t anticipate how much harder and longer it would make my days. These 8 hours with 1 hour unpaid lunch and one hour commute are really 10 hours days then add my own clients to either end and wowza. For starters I’m not used to sitting for that long of a time. My ass literally hurts and my back, shoulders and neck get so stiff. And the driving……. OMG, commuting is hell. I used to love driving, sometime ago. Can’t even remember what that feeling was like anymore.
But just two more days and I’m back to the still hectic but somewhat less so schedule. I plan on starting up the gym routinely next week, even though January and February are crazy busy there. I’ll just have to wait out the New Year’s Resolution people. Lol
And as far as Brad. I’m not going to officially break up with him. I’m just going to do my own thing more and more. It’s a matter of realigning my priorities in my day to day task management. They are:
2) my kiddos
3) my house
4) my business
I absolutely must put myself first because everything and everyone below suffers drastically if I am not well. This means trying to be whole, healthy and stable within my entire being; body, mind, and spirit. I am still learning what that looks like and what it takes to feel truly centered and fulfilled with myself. But this is a lifelong learning process of research, trial and reassessment. And it is a journey I am happy to go on, because it is truly mine alone.
I want to spend this next year fully familiarizing myself with me again; in all aspects. As much as I talk about wanting to be remarried and sex and bucket lists I think right now I want to table that for 2020 and just focus on the simplicity of not giving a fuck, as far as coupling; and just living my life, one step forward at a time. Reaching out for the things that spark joy in my life. Reaching out for life as it reaches out to me.
Let’s go 2020!!! 📣🎆🎉🥳💃