I may not be the brightest bulb in the pack always
I may not have the best skills
I may not know the most factoids
But I do know what I want
And I know when I’m not getting it
And I know what I’m willing to sacrifice
And what I’m not
And while this life has tested me plenty
Over and over in only the cruel way
That Karma, Akashik Records, the wrath of God, the curse of the devil or whatever you want to call it can.*
Here is the thing.
I want to be happy.
But unlike the vast majority of people I genuinely think I know what that looks like. For my life, for inside of myself and that’s the feeling I’m trying to bring forward. Every moment I can.
And if someone isn’t going to give me the space to do that….what the hell do I want them around for?**
The blankets were pulled over my face. It was black. No light. I could see the pulses of energy that sparkle like rainbows so clearly. I could sense the expanse of it all stretching into eternity.
In all this expanse, Infinite possibilities upon infinite modalities upon infinite imaginings can come to life.
So what do I want?
What do I want to live and see?
And a feeling of pure happiness crosses over me. I know so well what that feels like.
I don’t think I’m that high maintenance. But…the thing is….. I don’t care.
**I can die at this stake happily. 🥰❣️💋
*I try not to compare my life to others. After all…..I don’t know any of the secret pain their life is enduring. Who goes completely unscathed in life? Possible maybe by the courage of one’s mind and the freedom of one’s heart and soul. But that doesn’t mean we don’t each still get tested. I believe.