Here’s the thing

I may not be the brightest bulb in the pack always

I may not have the best skills

I may not know the most factoids

But I do know what I want

And I know when I’m not getting it

And I know what I’m willing to sacrifice

And what I’m not

And while this life has tested me plenty

Over and over in only the cruel way

That Karma, Akashik Records, the wrath of God, the curse of the devil or whatever you want to call it can.*


Here is the thing.

I want to be happy.

Who doesn’t?


I know.

But unlike the vast majority of people I genuinely think I know what that looks like. For my life, for inside of myself and that’s the feeling I’m trying to bring forward. Every moment I can.

And if someone isn’t going to give me the space to do that….what the hell do I want them around for?**


The blankets were pulled over my face. It was black. No light. I could see the pulses of energy that sparkle like rainbows so clearly. I could sense the expanse of it all stretching into eternity.

In all this expanse, Infinite possibilities upon infinite modalities upon infinite imaginings can come to life.

So what do I want?

What do I want to live and see?

And a feeling of pure happiness crosses over me. I know so well what that feels like.


I don’t think I’m that high maintenance. But…the thing is….. I don’t care.

**I can die at this stake happily. 🥰❣️💋


*I try not to compare my life to others. After all…..I don’t know any of the secret pain their life is enduring. Who goes completely unscathed in life? Possible maybe by the courage of one’s mind and the freedom of one’s heart and soul. But that doesn’t mean we don’t each still get tested. I believe.

Author: porngirl3

I have always enjoyed reading and writing. Maybe because I have always been on the quiet and reclusive side; which most people may not guess at first glance or if seeing me in a social setting, especially around people I am comfortable with but it’s also not something I have an issue with. I need solitude to recharge. Writing gives me the peace and time to renew that is offered to you for your enjoyment and pleasure as well. I hope. Lol

4 thoughts on “Here’s the thing”

    1. Awwwwww……🥰🥰🥰

      We all have our plusses and minuses. I try to lead in to life with my heart first. Not always easy but always worth the effort. But everyone has their own drama to unfold. I try to have compassion for myself and others on this rough road.

      I would love nothing more than for someone to soften this journey for me. I try so much to do that for others.
      I know what I want and need in life. I know where I want to be. It’s like looking through a window of a closed candy store. Looks so close and yet it feels so far.


      1. Compassion is a wonderful virtue, and I can tell that you are indeed a compassionate girl. I do my best to be kind, considerate, honest, open, accepting, and understanding. Sometimes I succeed. Talk with me any time you wish. 🌹❤🌹

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