Letting the coyote guard the hen house.
Hard to stomach this one. But I’m grasping at straws unsure what else to do. I promised the junior I’d keep her in school for her senior year and I intend to do that, one way or another.
As it stands I owe my mortgage company $25k. The loan modification meeting is next month. Assuming they let me modify my mortgage I still need to come up with the back mortgage, which I’m hoping the state can maybe help me with, as another hardship loan. Those loans cycle in and out of availability and the process to get approved is long, but it’s a possibility I’m putting all my eggs into.
I’ve considered a gofundme but that would only help bring me current and then I’d have to lease my house to cover the mortgage going forward. Which means moving. But it is another option, assuming I can even raise that much, which seems improbable to me. I am also considering putting a lean against my home for the debt with 10% interest hoping someone would be interested in owning part of my house to help us out.
These are all just if and when’s. Meanwhile I’m plugging along.
Yesterday was a bad day at work. I got reprimanded for wearing a dress that was a bit too sexy and short for work. I wasn’t trying to be sexy. I had a long sweater on top. I just don’t want to go out and buy all new clothes for this job and the dress is a bit short because I gained a few pounds and my curves are curvier. Brad is fascinated by how big my tits are now.
It never ceases to amaze me how petty and jealous women can be with each other. Then the boss has the audacity to cite the dress code and her hands being tied, as if I didn’t know she wrote the damn rules to begin with. We have 3 women in the office full-time and about 2-5 men coming in and out, one of which is her husband. So I get it. But it just set the day off badly.
I like the job, but I also wish I didn’t have to work there. I really just want to concentrate on my business. Life has not taken it so easy on me. It’s been four years of really struggling; emotionally and financially.
Well. Anyway. So it goes. I just had a regular no show on me. I hope he’s ok. I’m going to head to the grocery store to make use of this time before work.
Enjoy your day my pretties. 😉💋💋🤗🥰🙏🏽