grounded, still with the moment; settling your peace with the past and your anxiety about the future has got to be one of the most difficult things to do.
It has become an integral part of who I am trying to be. So I’ve found “tricks” (as Alphonso says) to help put me in that space. I’ve found things that help calm my nerves and I try to practice them as often as I can.
But like now, that I’m so busy and my mind races from what I have to do to the next thing floating around in there; running at warp speed, chasing it’s own tail…. I need to remind myself to loosen my shoulders, stabilize my breathing, stop the hamster wheels and just be here now.
Here is where I’m meant to be and I serve myself and the world better by being completely present to life, as it stands in this exact moment. Trying to live with blinders off, in my own complete truth – pretty or ugly as it may be, is all the courage I truly need. Life will show me the signs, if I let it, if I listen and pay attention to the sometimes very subtle clues.
I need to get out of my own way though. I need to stop the destruction I cause myself with my own angst, worry, distress, anger, bitterness, jealousy, fear, sadness, and all the other melodrama I play out in my mind. I have control over the script I reel out over and over.
Today I want to simply be wherever I am, in whatever is taking place. I just want to be fully there/here. I want to bring myself to the table. Because when it’s all said and done that is the only true gift I can bring. That is the thing of most value I can do for myself and the world.
I’m tired of living scared. I’m sick of being apprehensive. I’m so done with obsessing about the future and dwelling on the past. I’ve had enough of being sick and tired. I’m over carrying this constant underlying stress around. Learning to let it all go… truly go… is the thing that will let me live, truly live my life.
And that’s what I am striving for here. I mean thriving is great and success is grand, but letting myself truly be present, living life moment by simple moment…… to me, is the greatest achievement to be had.
Deep breath. Here we go. 💋💋💋