Sexuality vs spirituality

These things are not mutually exclusive to me. While a lot of religions separate the two I find great power in combining them. Which is why I want to find someone I can have tantric sex with. Which is why I am so desperate to make love again.

I was talking to Paul about how I get very depleted sometimes doing energy work and have had some rather debilitating experiences, which have put me off practicing it as much as I would like to.

He asked me “ok, what gives you the most energy?”. Which was a question I wasn’t expecting. It didn’t take me long to blurt out “sex”. He chuckled “what else?”. “Exercise” I said. “What else?” he pressed on. “Dancing and/or going to the sex club” I said.

He seemed satisfied with that or maybe it was too close to the first answer, but he then said. “Ok, do those things as often as you can and make sure you always have a surplus of energy”. Makes sense.

I guess it’s a good thing I am so sensitive to energy. It makes me aware of things on a level most people don’t seem conscious of. So I know (within myself) that even when it manifests as pain, tiredness, weakness or what have you that it is actually a spiritual energy depletion, manifesting in physical form. Because I understand myself pretty well. Because I see how the energy works and feels within my own body.

Would that I could have sex every day? Absolutely!!! Would that I could have sex multiple times a day would I? Dumb question. Lol.

But my life is not set up for that. And it’s not about my persona or image. I really don’t care what people think of me. It’s about time and life’s insipid responsibilities. All the things I have to do, which I do, mostly without complaint, but would rather not have to do. Things that take precedence over things I would prefer to be doing.

I almost considered being a sex therapist. As in having sex with people for actual legitimate health reasons, legally. I couldn’t figure out the training and licensing on that, and how to get referrals. Since it needs to actually be scripted out to be legal, I believe. But that seems like something I would really enjoy. Not that all sex therapy even involves sex. Some people just need to learn to be comfortable naked. Some people need to learn how to enjoy their own bodies. Some people just need to understand what sexual intimacy feels like.* If anything though, I think women need sex therapy much more than men probably do.

Personally, I can not separate my sexuality from my spirituality, nor do I want to. I am a sexual being and I am a spiritual being. I derive power from both and they are a truly out of this world combined. Not that they aren’t pretty spectacular on their own too.

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*Seeing how difficult it’s been to try and teach Brad to make love has me second guessing this though. But he isn’t paying me to teach him. He also seems to have almost zero incentive with it, even though I’ve badgered him about it multiple times. Irritates me endlessly!😑

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6 thoughts on “Sexuality vs spirituality”

  1. The want to be a sex therapist comment – your description on it – made me laugh out loud. Luckily no one was in the room with me to ask me what I was laughing at…

    Sexuality and spirituality are not separate. I know you said religions separate them, but judaism definitely doesn’t. Sex, in judaism is considered by some to be a taboo topic, but that’s really because they’ve gotten it mixed up. It’s considered to be so spiritual and so, for lack of a better word, holy, that talking too much about it degrades it and brings down the essence of it. Sex is the ultimate connection.

    Anyways, why am I rambling?

    What energy work do you do? Or, if you’ve written posts about it, could you link it?

    Love, light and glitter

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    1. That’s fascinating. I enjoy learning about religions even though I don’t know I would ever belong to one. Lol

      I do energy work. I don’t call it by anything specific because I don’t use any protocols or specific methodology. I just go with what feels right. Funny that this year I’ve been doing some formal training: reiki, Pranic, shaman, etc. And I realize I’ve been using forms of ancient practices that I have used a lot of the same methods on my own from very young. They just came to me.

      I realized I was healing people with my touch or presence last year and I wanted to learn to control it. I also wanted to learn to handle a few energy depletions I’ve experienced around certain people or while healing. I haven’t quite figured an easy way to do that yet.

      So I don’t activity practice it anymore, which is sad because how can I improve and master it? But like everything it’s a work in practice and I haven’t given up on it. It’s an integral part of who I am. I’m just gathering myself.

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      1. When you practice it on yourself it’ll help.

        Re your experiences around other people, you can learn to protect yourself with energetical or emotional boundaries. It’d take time to learn how to do that, but it’s doable. There are also ways to rebuild your own energy.

        Knowing it instinctively is best, although learning the different forms is better because then you combine your natural ability with knowledge – following a specific path allows/creates the formation and will make it more effective – does that makes sense?

        Never give up on it! Taking a break means that when you get back to it you’ll be all the better….

        Love, light and glitter

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      2. I do it on myself all the time. I have lost the courage to do it for others though. I want to get back to it, but i need my life to be more even keeled. I’m managing myself, but the way my life is it just doesn’t feel possible to take on anything else.

        I like learning about the different modalities but I don’t do well with structures. I don’t like the way people are so hard-ass about following specifics. I know from my own experiences that intention and force can be achieved with absolutely no dogma involved. I don’t buy into any of it. Which makes me the black sheep to it all because people take the steps so seriously and to me it’s a bit funny. It’s not that I don’t believe that certain practices amplify energy. It’s just that it’s meant more for the practitioner and the recipient more than anything. The energy is available always. Always there in abundance. I know this. I know I just have to open myself to it. And I don’t particularly like any of the things I’ve learned so far. I don’t discredit it. They just aren’t for me personally.

        I need to keep looking. Somewhere out there, or in here is the key I’m looking for.

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      3. I hope you find it!! That’s why I said following your intuition is best, and then you can integrate whatever you like from anything you learn.
        Love, light and glitter

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