Yesterday my mom and I were discussing sex. She’s still harping on me switching sides. I told her I’ve had sex with a woman. I wasn’t in love. I was maybe in lust, more than anything I just coveted her body…is what I think is more accurate. Maybe if I was in love it would have meant something or felt special.
I was telling her how difficult it would be to be with a woman full time because I hate dildos. Can’t stand them. The ones I own are reserved for men, not me. I get zero enjoyment from them. This stems back to my abuse and that’s all I’m going to say about it.
In femdom sometimes men are made to wear dildos as a form of humiliation because you’re making a point of how inferior and utterly useless men are; specifically this man now sporting the dildo. It’s quite funny and I have done this for the psychology of it and not for my pleasure. Or, correctly stated, not for my sexual pleasure. Lol. So fun!
But I was telling her how even though I love PIV (penis in vagina) I don’t tend to orgasm that way, but I still enjoy it more than any other form of sex. And I told her how if I came strictly from PIV easily every time I would bring home a new guy every night. Heck, a few even. Lol. So I guess it’s lucky I don’t. Still funny.
Later she asks me about the man I met. She hadn’t seen him. He had pretty eyes and a soft sweet face. It’s hard to say what my type is. I tend to love people from the inside out and I’ve dated (what others have considered) ugly men many times. Looks don’t really matter to me.
But penis size kind of does. I went out with a guy with a 3″ penis once and had to fake it every time because I just couldn’t feel him at all. It was sad to me and I vowed never to fake it again.
You can work with 5″ and up though, for sure IMO, anything more is great too, assuming they don’t just let the size do all the heavy lifting. 🤣🤣🤣
Then I was talking to another guy on FetLife and he says. “Everyone is looking for well adjusted people” and I contradicted him. I said “I think everyone is just looking for a form of crazy that matches their crazy.”.Lol
I remember right after my divorce I would flip through Craigslist love connection section and voyeur. I responded to very few and far between. One that caught my eye was a guy in Salem.
His ad read like the antithesis of the every other ad ever written. He said he wanted a batshit crazy woman. He said he wanted a passionate and torrid and heavily toxic relationship.
It would have been my first date after my divorce and it was still the thick of it for me. We corresponded a little but he said we were too geographically far. Just as well. I was of the opinion that he was one of those guys that was still hung up on his ex anyway. (Yea….that was the red flag there.🤣)
Sometimes I think maybe I should just accept that I’m single and not even try to date. Then I remember how much I enjoy sex, and snuggling, and emotional support, companionship and loving someone. I want to enjoy where I am though, so it’s better not to dwell on where I think I want to be… because….well….there’s just no way to know, now is there.
Although I have been thinking of joining another psychic meetup group. 🤣🤣🤣