That’s all I need.
One person, one time in my life to love me, understand me, treasure me, and give me their all… in a healthy and nurturing environment. A space where I feel deeply supported and treasured for who I really am.
It’s not that I haven’t loved or been loved. It’s not that I’ve only ever had unhealthy relationships. It’s that I’ve never had the trifecta; someone I was head over heels for, that felt the same for me, that was also a dependable and uplifting partner.
Now I have to ask myself: am I capable of being that? Am I capable of finding that? Am I capable of sustaining that?
When you’ve never experienced something, it’s hard to know these answers. I do know I want to find out for myself. And I feel fortunate that I feel very clear about my needs. I feel clearer in who I am and what I’m worthy of than ever before. And I’m also at a point where if it doesn’t happen I’m ok with it too. The dream itself is a rather enjoyable one.
So while sometimes I feel frustrated and disappointed about it, I also think that statistically I’ve still got decent odds…. since, again, I just need one person. One. And since life is unpredictable at best I can’t rule anytime, anyone or anywhere out. I’ve just got to stay open to the possibilities, listen to my heart and believe it’s coming. And all I can hope is that I have enough time left in this game to experience it for myself. One time.
We shall see.
This is, after all, just one dream. One of many, many dreams. But it is one of my favorite and most soothing ones. And the feelings that gush over me when I think about it are so beautiful, that I can’t imagine reality living up to it really. But that’s the beauty of dreaming too. Engulfing myself in the warmth of a deeply passionate and all encompassing love and devotion. The height of emotion I can sense within myself but has never come to full fruition in reality.
It’s the beauty of hope. It’s the stuff that makes life worthwhile. Isn’t it? IDK. Can’t speak for everyone, but it is to me. 🤣💋❣️🥰🌹🤪☺️