I’ll have a month long moratorium on sex due to the clit ring. That puts us right at Christmas. That’s a good way to bring in the New Year. I may even resort to Tinder then, but not now. Definitely not now. Way too much on my plate.
I’m looking forward to having a relationship with an adult, as an adult. I’m not sure I knew what that was not even that long ago. I mean, as far as I can interpret it: there should be a lot of fun. Maybe this isn’t most people’s criteria for a relationship but it is one of mine. From there, mutual respect, having a few hobbies to share and some common life views, and of course good conflict resolution skills. Because unfortunately at some point there is going to be some tension or issues that need addressing. Seems pretty inevitable. 🤷🏽♀️
I am curious to see if I’ve grown from this last year as much as I feel I have and if I can finally steer myself in the direction of a truly healthy relationship. This would be uncharted territory for me, to be honest. But I more clearly understand myself and what I want and while I’m still my same easy going self I want to be truly happy and that involves having someone in my life that wholeheartedly loves me for who I really am and not some imposed ideal and cherishes me deeply plus respects and cares for the things and beings I cherish.
I’m willing to wait for that if I ever do get married again. Otherwise, for really off the charts sex……I could compromise some. 😝 A little. In that case maybe I’ll go back to my original idea of having a separate Dom and submissive. I do so love switching.
These are all just pleasant thoughts to have; such dreamy happy hopes. We shall see. It’s just nice to dream a little dream.