This is the end πŸ’”

I was depositing a check today and noticed that the extra account that Brad had linked to his account (kind of like a floater account between us so that he could easily give me money) was gone. Now obviously this is the natural progression of a break-up.

I knew it was coming. It’s only logical. It’s a good sign, right? It’s a step towards uncoupling. It’s not out of left field. It speaks to acceptance on his part and in a weird way also lets me know he is ok. He is doing the things he needs to be doing. And honestly he barely even used it.

But it still stung a bit to see it gone. It just reminds me how lonely I am. But lonely is ok. Lonely is manageable. Miserable is another thing altogether and I’m not that. At least.

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This is also the end for my drinking. I absolutely can’t drink anymore. I wish I could. I’d love to. Absolutely love to, but it’s a crutch I can’t use. And I just have to accept it once and for all. 2019. This is my break-up year. Officially. Goodbye my old friend. The end.

Author: porngirl3

I have always enjoyed reading and writing. Maybe because I have always been on the quiet and reclusive side; which most people may not guess at first glance or if seeing me in a social setting, especially around people I am comfortable with but it’s also not something I have an issue with. I need solitude to recharge. Writing gives me the peace and time to renew myself...here that is offered to you for your enjoyment and pleasure as well. I hope. Lol

7 thoughts on “This is the end πŸ’””

  1. sorry to hear about your break up. It’s hard to be independent and yet financially stable. Every once in awhile it would be nice to indulge I’m sure you willπŸ˜‰
    All the happiness to you

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        1. I don’t remind him, ever. Because he doesn’t see it that way and we end up arguing. He insists it’s all me and I’m wrong and I am the only one stopping us from being the happy family. Gaslighting and denial 101. It’s just more stress than I need but it keeps him happy to think that and I know better than to even contemplate believing any of it.

          I hope things do get better. That is my hope. Thanks Becky for your lovely thoughts.πŸ₯°β›„❣️

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  2. π•Ύπ–π–—π–Ž π•½π–†π–‰π–π–Šπ–˜π–π–“π–†π–“π–‰π–˜π–“ π•΅π–š says:

    Please send me mail so that i cant get in touch. i lost your mail id.
    i have to complete some paper work for your visa and other arrangments in India. as our planning to visit India. πŸ™

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  3. Sorry to hear about your relationship. But think of the freedom! Yeah, alcohol is a mixed blessing. It really really sucks when it stops working and you’re addicted. I’ve been there to some degree. Clean now (few beers a week) but before was at times not so good.

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