I was depositing a check today and noticed that the extra account that Brad had linked to his account (kind of like a floater account between us so that he could easily give me money) was gone. Now obviously this is the natural progression of a break-up.
I knew it was coming. It’s only logical. It’s a good sign, right? It’s a step towards uncoupling. It’s not out of left field. It speaks to acceptance on his part and in a weird way also lets me know he is ok. He is doing the things he needs to be doing. And honestly he barely even used it.
But it still stung a bit to see it gone. It just reminds me how lonely I am. But lonely is ok. Lonely is manageable. Miserable is another thing altogether and I’m not that. At least.
This is also the end for my drinking. I absolutely can’t drink anymore. I wish I could. I’d love to. Absolutely love to, but it’s a crutch I can’t use. And I just have to accept it once and for all. 2019. This is my break-up year. Officially. Goodbye my old friend. The end.