I mean really, is anyone fooled?
There are three things I want in life.
1) to be close to, in alignment with and feel the depths of divinity within my soul.
2) stability and health for myself and my girls
3) a love like no other
Yet these things seem always so fleeting, impermanent and complicated
And I move from desperately wanting one to the others at any given moment in time.
But yet I also know when it comes down to it all I really truly want is tranquility, peace of mind and happiness within myself. And I don’t need any of the 3 above to have this.
This is the battle I have within myself. There are many wars waging in life. Wars outside of myself. Wars that I am part of through no desire or choice, it seems. So I try to concentrate on the wars I can actually win.
But I’m feeling mixed up in the middle of a huge conundrum right now with no clarity yet.
What I know is that I miss being touched. I miss being loved. I miss loving and touching. There is this desperate longing I wish I could satiate. But I must not have met that person yet because no one is here……..💔😣😢