Who am I kidding?

I mean really, is anyone fooled?

There are three things I want in life.

1) to be close to, in alignment with and feel the depths of divinity within my soul.

2) stability and health for myself and my girls

3) a love like no other

Yet these things seem always so fleeting, impermanent and complicated

And I move from desperately wanting one to the others at any given moment in time.

But yet I also know when it comes down to it all I really truly want is tranquility, peace of mind and happiness within myself. And I don’t need any of the 3 above to have this.

This is the battle I have within myself. There are many wars waging in life. Wars outside of myself. Wars that I am part of through no desire or choice, it seems. So I try to concentrate on the wars I can actually win.

But I’m feeling mixed up in the middle of a huge conundrum right now with no clarity yet.

What I know is that I miss being touched. I miss being loved. I miss loving and touching. There is this desperate longing I wish I could satiate. But I must not have met that person yet because no one is here……..πŸ’”πŸ˜£πŸ˜’

Author: porngirl3

I have always enjoyed reading and writing. Maybe because I have always been on the quiet and reclusive side; which most people may not guess at first glance or if seeing me in a social setting, especially around people I am comfortable with but it’s also not something I have an issue with. I need solitude to recharge. Writing gives me the peace and time to renew myself...here that is offered to you for your enjoyment and pleasure as well. I hope. Lol

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