I woke up today with the mindset that I am done.
I am done struggling. I am done worrying. I am done stressing out over this life. I’m not fighting the tide anymore. I’m not out to prove anything to anyone, not even myself.
I want to be here, present for the beauty in life. I want to find the pleasure and fun in each moment.
Whatever that means. However that comes. So be it.
I’m not trying to lose myself to debauchery or denial. Rather I’m trying to find a way not to survive this life because let’s face it that’s not possible, but to enjoy it.
Yes, I’m caught in this worlds tumultuous battle of good and evil. For some reason I chose or was meant to be here. Whichever it is is no matter really. I have made my imprint. I exist. I’m done working so hard for it. I’m done suffering through it all. I’m done playing these stupid games by these stupid rules I never agreed to in the first place, to support a system that fails so many all over the world and even here in my own backyard.
I have my own moral compass and more importantly I have my heart and soul to guide me. I’m good with those. I trust them more than I trust most anything else. So I’m done putting credence onto anything else. I’m ready to see the beauty in life. I’m ready to let the misery go.
Not to say there won’t be drudgery and work along the way. But I’m going to make it my life’s mission to make every moment as fun as possible. To extract the most joy I can from whatever time I have left here.
I’m done participating in this war being waged. It was started before me and will be going on long after me. Whatever that means. However that plays out. I’m tired of trying to hold on to things that maybe weren’t meant to be held on to. I’m loosening my tight grip and letting myself float with the tide.
I’ll still do what I need to do. We all need to do something. I am not talking about giving up. I’m talking about no longer playing along to the march of the dying. No longer paying tribute to the fear mongering. No longer caring about all these stupid, superficial falsities that are supposed to mark success and happiness to standards I never agreed to or accept.
I don’t want to listen to the lies of what this life is suppose to be, of how I am supposed to live it. I’ve got this. Even if I’m wrong, I’m right. Because it’s my life and whatever it is I’m meant to do here I’m going to consider it officially done. I know who I am. That’s really more than good enough for me. This world may never stop being crazy but I’m done trying to keep up with it’s madness.
I just want to be open to the fun of it all. It’s there or rather here…all around us. I personally have just been to busy playing all these stupid games to remember it’s a game. It truly all is. So now I just want to enjoy it.
I’m ready to smile. My heart and soul are ready to come out and play.
Let’s do this.
Let the fun begin.
Quite not coincidentally my good friend Danica sent me this just a few minutes ago. Lol❣️