I don’t usually remember my dreams unless I wake up without an alarm and try to write them down before they become a blur.
I was reading yesterday how dreams carry a lot of subconscious messages that if we can learn to interpret can be very beneficial to our daily lives. Just one more thing to add to the list. 🙄
This life is such a juxtaposition.
For me personally, in order to feel fully balanced, I function best with a daily routine of good sleep, exercise, nutrient-dense whole food meals and snacks, meditation/prayer and a more methodical pace that allows for mindful responses as opposed to stress-induced jerk reactions. But all of this takes time and is a lifestyle unto itself which modern life doesn’t seem to allow most people.
I can’t change that this is my life currently. All I can really change right now is me. So this morning as I laid in bed trying to remember my dreams I decided that while I go through the rigamarole that my daily life forces upon me, in the background I will be working on my spiritual lessons. I will be looking beyond the superficialities to see the nuances I can be learning from each moment. The meaning behind the quiet and chaos of it all.
I will be drawing on each moment to learn what I need to; striving for balance within myself. I was also thinking about how throughout my life I have generally dated men I saw more as projects than equals. But I’m seeing that the only project I need to be working on right now is me.
This is my time. This is the time for doing. No more just dreaming, hoping, wishing, waiting. It’s not so much a grabbing life by the balls things. It’s a reigning in of myself. It’s a matter of finding who I am seeking within myself. It’s aligning who I want to be with who I am and that has nothing to do with money, status, power, privilege, etc. It has to do with my beliefs of what I am capable of on a spiritual level and the goal of bringing that to its complete fruition.
Today feels good.
But I did go to sleep horny last night. Horny but too tired to even masturbate. Lol. That’s gotta be a first. Masturbating gets a bit boring sometimes, which is why I used to love porn so much I guess. Hmmmmm. Well…..I’ll figure it out. 🤔😂😉