Awareness vs acceptance vs change, missing the ease of it, status

Why do I find acceptance to be absolutely vital in life? It’s actually for many reasons but probably the most beneficial one is that without deep and full acceptance we can’t have complete awareness or lasting and true change for our own issues.

Acceptance gives us the ability to become aware of things for ourselves. It allows us to rip the blinders off and look at our own blind spots. It allows us to see all the things about ourselves and others that perhaps we didn’t want to or couldn’t see before accepting things as they are. Acceptance gives us a chance to see things clearly because it doesn’t impose any restrictions on what is. It doesn’t mar it or color it any other way than how it truly is.

And until you know that, or can see that, until we have that awareness we can not act in a meaningful and authentic way about it and therefore any steps towards change or resolution to the issue will be incompatible or incomplete.

I am a huge advocate for energy work, prayer and spiritual healing, but I also know we have to put in the work. This….. this is the ultimate equalizer though; because we all have work to do.


So I let myself have another cheat day again yesterday. But by evening I was feeling it’s effects: bloating, exhaustion, grouchiness. I woke up with a headache and my eyes a bit swollen, my entire body a bit water logged. I’m lucky I have such good mind and body communication open to me. Doctors have often challenged me about this only to be left surprised. I even had one asshole gynecologist prick my cervix several times just to confirm my sensitivity.

I had another tell me there was absolutely no way I could feel my liver as there are no nerves there. So when my heart rate kept spiking, setting off alarms during my pain episodes and I was writhing in pain so much they had to secure me to the bed he was left completely dumbfound, especially because I could pin point exactly where the pain was coming from. Anyway……

Point is……I realized last night that I don’t actually miss the food all that much. Sure gluten filled pizza with real cheese is great. Real pancakes with butter and whip cream are pretty yummy. You get my point. The alternatives are not quite the same, but the reality is that you get used to it. Gluten free pancakes aren’t bad. There are many options and one adapts to it.

The thing I realized I actually miss the most is simply the ease of eating. I miss being able to eat anything at any time, anywhere. Not having to look at labels, ask questions, modify menu items, and go without. I miss not having to think about it. It’s been years since I’ve had that luxury.

For now though, abstaining is the best option for my body to function at it’s best capacity and I’m so done with this gluten induced brain fog.

People often ask me my thoughts on gluten. I don’t feel gluten is evil. I personally feel the way we manufacture grains in this country; the genetic modifications, the pesticides, the chemicals added to the process of producing our grains has more to do with people’s sensitivities than the actual gluten itself; except for the few actual celiac people. But… do you change a system wide issue?


I’ve always hated hierarchies; even when I benefitted from them. I’ve always seen the absurdity, unfairness and detriments to it. Not to say that some structure isn’t necessary but more so that it should be fluid and allow for ALL those involved in whatever system to benefit, add input and put in work.

It reminds me of an article I read that said that men do not do their equal share of chores and housework even with both partners working equally. However, the expectation wasn’t necessarily for equality for both parties to be happy as much as whatever percentage or tasks both felt acceptable for a happy and symbiotic cohabitation. However skewed that may or may not be, in whatever direction both parties find harmony with. And that’s how I feel it should be in all instances.

Author: porngirl3

I have always enjoyed reading and writing. Maybe because I have always been on the quiet and reclusive side; which most people may not guess at first glance or if seeing me in a social setting, especially around people I am comfortable with but it’s also not something I have an issue with. I need solitude to recharge. Writing gives me the peace and time to renew that is offered to you for your enjoyment and pleasure as well. I hope. Lol

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