Let’s review the day……
Taxes got done. House got tidy to a level of acceptableness. I got offered the part-time job I applied for earlier in the week. Brad took me to dinner and kept trying to propose with a straw paper wrapper quickly made into a ring shape. Lol
Let’s unpack that a bit because all these make-ups and break-ups are probably causing whiplash and last we knew he was out of the picture.
See what happened is that…….
I, me, this person here, broke down and called him a few days ago. Which is an unusual stance for me. In that in all our break ups I’ve never been the one to reach out to him. But I was missing him so much and when Sylvia (my therapist) suggested that maybe he and I just needed to come in for couples therapy to learn to argue effectively and not detrimentally….it kind of felt like a green light.
Still took me a few days after that to decide to contact him. So when I called him he immediately came over and took me to lunch and grocery shopping. I spent the night at his house and things felt really good between us.
Then the next night we argued and I was absolutely besides myself with anger, especially at myself for having re-engaged. But, very unlike him within less than an hour he apologized, explained why he reacted the way he did and took full responsibility for the ordeal.
So I told him we needed to have a serious discussion, which he generally avoids at all costs. I told him we needed to sit down and figure out our issues, if we could resolve them and figure out what we were doing, where we were going, and how to stop driving each other crazy with these on and off dramatic episodes.
So….. he picked me up last night to take me to dinner and have the discussion. I was shocked that he wasn’t stressed, agitated or short with me. He actually seemed pretty calm, especially for having to drive around a major traffic jam to get to me.
Beforehand I had made sure I knew very clearly what I wanted in this situation. Because it’s no fair asking someone to have a difficult conversation when you have no idea what you really want out of it. Surprisingly it came very clear to me. And after when we sat down and got drinks and chit chatted a bit I started in…..
“It’s been over 3 years that I’ve been divorced now. The first year I couldn’t yet date. The second year I dated but wasn’t quite sure I could see myself getting married again. But now after 3 years of struggling and working so hard and trying to make a go of it alone I’ve realized…. I really just want to be married again and be a “housewife”. I love nurturing my family and I want a husband to adore and be my best friend. I’m tired of this constant struggle with no one at my side.”
Then he shocked me a bit when he told me his desires. He wants to convert his garage into an extra bed and bath and have us all move in with him. We talked about the logistics and possible difficulties, the finances, and tried to stay focused on the big picture of it all.
That’s when he started trying to propose. It was funny and I laughed it off as I firmly said “no, stop, don’t do that”. I’ve never been proposed to and that wasn’t going to be it. It’s not that I need some huge ordeal. I simply want it be special and I want us to both be 100% sure.
Then we went to the sex club; Privata. It was busy but not excessively so. In all I had 4 glasses of champagne and thankfully, no more. We ended up making out throughout the club and finally made our way into a room. I undressed him and laid him on the bed. I climbed on top still fully dressed, my shoes off only because they had broken. I rode him as I pinched his balls and nipples, slapped his face and made him writhe and scream in pain. I was trying to get his screams to match those of the girl in the next room.
We were getting there when he tapped out because his back was hurting in that position. That’s when I noticed I had inadvertently left the curtains open and we had a small audience. I blushed as they walked away and I closed them. Then he got on top and opened them again and fucked me hard. His dick was bulging to the point it was causing me a little pain. “Ow daddy” I protested. “Take it for me little girl, take daddy’s big dick” he came back with and became the tiger I hadn’t seen for a while.
Then he abruptly stopped pumping, and stared into my eyes and said “I know we play these games, and they are all fun and great, but this man Brad really loves this women, Macy” and I teared up instantly.
Then he did something he also hasn’t done in a long time. He got into the only position that makes me orgasm though PIV (penis in vagina), because it stimulates my clitoris effectively and I was so close, but between the possible audience and the alcohol I couldn’t. I was closer than I’d been with him in months though and it all felt so wonderful.
He dropped me off at home. My head hit the pillow at 2am and then the munch woke me up at 8 to start her birthday extravaganza.
I briefly discussed the new turn of events with the girls this morning once we settled into the morning and explained that I wanted their opinion and that it was a possibility and not a definitive thing. It’s hard to merge two families with so many moving parts and issues and Brad and I don’t scream stability.
But I realized this morning that Brad and I have a lot of difficulties between us because we are both fairly grouchy sometimes. Him because of his constant back pain and me because of my many life stressors. Not to give an excuse to either of us, but….I guess I am.
Well…. so….. this is a whole new turn of events and things will progress as they progress and we shall see. Shan’t we?
Now to make breakfast and get going. Birthday girl needs some smooches and attention.
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great post.. how are you
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I’m ok. What about you?
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Truly say .. i am not ok..π
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Why?
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i am alone..ππ
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will you be my friend.. ??
i like your fairness. you are so fair.. a good heart person can do true friendship..
it will be my pleasure if you be my friend..
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That’s so sweet. Thank you. I could definitely use more real friends in my life but I’m not sure I have the time and energy to devote to a new friendship. I’m sorry.
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oh means alone again…πππππ
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You know in this world people meet only for money or sex.. but i want friend.. true friend
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I know. That does seem true. A true friend is one of the most precious things in life. β£οΈ
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yes but i dont have.
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please be my friend..
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Can I ask you something? Please think about this before you respond.
Are you your own friend?
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yes.. and i want good one too.
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Ok. Another question.
Are you a good friend to have?
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yes i am very good to have..
when we will friend you will see yourself that you chose a great man to be your friend..β
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May i know what is thia simbols..
are you accepting me as your friend ?
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Yes….but I’m not sure what that means to you. As I said I have limited time and energy right now.
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its ok no problem.. and i am very thankful to you for this friendship..
Please tell me your sweet name ?ββ
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from where you are my dear friend ?
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hey are you there ?
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ot means alot to me. you dont know its a wornderful friendship for me.
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ββDid you take breakfast ?
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not answering ?
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I was sleeping. Friends should not be so demanding, especially if they know how difficult their friends life is and that they don’t need more stress. Friends should alleviate problems not add to them. Do you understand?
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yes i understand this..
if a friend is in problem friends have to care them very sweetly.. and help themm not use them..
ββ.
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πππ½
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do you like me ?
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I like like your life quote posts very much, very inspiring. But I truly don’t know you yet. I do enjoy the attention though. π
Where are you in the world?
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I am from “The Great India.”
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Ah yes. I’ve always wanted to go.
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your welcome so when you plan to visit India ?
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No time soon unfortunately
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ok… You will be my honourable guest ever
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Awwwwww…thank you
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it will my pleasure..
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oh really.. When you will like to come to india ?
How many childrens you have ?
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I have 3. You?
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No.. i dont have i am not married.. i am alone in this world…
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We are all alone in the world. You simply are not married. ππ
Neither am I anymore.
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okk.. then your childrens from your boyfriend ?
ok.. So when is your birthday..
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Children from my ex husband.
April 2
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ok.. ok.. how old you are ?
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I want to say I am much older than you. Lol
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how old you are ?
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i think in a good relation age dosent matter..
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your family ? Mom & Dad ?
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Mom in So. Cal. Dad retired in Mexico.
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ok..
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You?
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i am orphan my parents died when i was 8 year old. they left too much money for me. and this world.
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I am sorry for your deep loss. That sounds horrible. No money can make up for that. Who raised you?
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yes money cant pay this loss.
i grow up myself because theri are many greedy relatives near me who want my money not my responsibilty. God take care me
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Well. I’m glad God kept you safe. I must go to sleep now. Goodnight. Have a good day.
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ok. I will wait for your love reply. about my love.
Truly say i love you. because you are so sweet and true friend of my ever. you tell me everything so truly
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you are my last love i will not love anyone now. because i am yours..
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Macy….???
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Hello Macy ?
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Yes?
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How are you Macy ?
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what you like to do for fun & enjoyment
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Lol. Well …I need more of that in my life.
When I have the time and energy I enjoy:
Yoga, thrift stores/garage sales, the arts (ballet, museums, music, theater), movies, reading, studying spirituality, exercise.
But I rarely do any of those things. However as you can tell. I do write which I enjoy tremendously.
You?
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great.. i like to read and write. for my enjoyment.
and some fun.. and like to make true only good friends..
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Why don’t you have friends there, where you are now?
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i am in india. i dont like to make gredy friends..
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will you merry me ? and will be my soulmate forever ?
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Well……this is my first proposal, but I can’t consider it that without a ring…now can I?
I don’t even know your name?
Shri? Is that your name?
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yes my name is Sri.. and i like you thats why i prpose you.
if you will merry me i will be a greates husband for you ever.. i give you much space care and love to live your life..
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Thank you. That is so sweet. We all deserve special care and love.
I’m not sure what is going on with you, in your world, with your situation in the lifetime. But I don’t think I can help you. I’m sorry.
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i dont want help i want your love only love if you can give it will make my life happy. and full of joy..
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so you want a ring by me to accept my prposal. ?
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Lol. Well…it’s a symbolic gesture. Ive been married but never been proposed to. So I wanted it to be special if it ever happened. I mean….. I did just turn down a paper ring proposal last week. And now an internet proposal. Seems to be a theme right now. I mean….I truly appreciate your willingness to marry a stranger. I mean if Bill Gates can do it. Lol
But…..I don’t know you. And my life is too complicated to run off to visit you or invite you here, but is you ever find yourself in Portland. However, my life is very volatile right now and I can’t say with absolute certainty I will be here come next year. Right now I’m just putting one foot in front of the other and handling every moment as it comes with as much grace, compassion and calmness as I can, even if it’s just towards myself.
So, please don’t take this as a no. I just want to know the person I marry somewhat better than just by a dozen small blurb exchanges and first name. Seems extreme even by mail order bride standards. Do you understand? I don’t want you to take this personally against you, but it is a lot to ask of someone. Especially and precisely because we don’t know each other. π
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its ok.
I am Sri from India.
i am a spritual leader and a bussinessman too.
i am not stranger just take your time to know me. I am very trustworthy . you know i am not an ordainary man i am very special because i have such a great friend and it you “Macy”.
Macy i am very deeply in love with you.
Never think i am going to mislead you i am very attracted to you.
I belive you just take your time and i am not forcing you to merry me
we can also be good friend always if you want .
Tell me what relation you want to have husband , boyfriend, or friend ??
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Well…..ideally I want to be married again. I love family life. But……one never knows what life will present.
For now though….let’s be friends.
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its ok my love lets friend..
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It’s romantic and exotic to think of a love affair, but one must be somewhat realistic. No?
Your enthusiasm and passion is very sweet though. Truly. ππ₯°
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Thankyou … you treat me as your friend and i treat you as my love. ok.
how are you today ?
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Well. Thank you. You?
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I will treat you as my love my wife…
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i am real. pure for you
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Pure love is a hard commodity to find in life. I treasure it deeply. π
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yes but you got it in me..
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There are many perwon in this world. but my Macy is the most beautiful and sweet girl ever in this world..
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Lol. Well…..who am I to disagree? π₯°ππ
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hahaha.. because you are
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your lips are so sweet today …
i am enjoying this sweet flavour..
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I suppose distance shouldn’t stop you from indulging but those are stolen kisses. π
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hahaha..you know in true love distance dosent matter.. only love matter..
and you know i am enjoing yors kissess..βΊβ
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beautiful flower for super beautiful girl making these flowers more beautiful..
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i love you.. Macy..
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Are you sleeping ?
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Watching me in your dream ..
can i see your pic please.ππβ
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Go to FetLife. Look up account MistressG3. Ask for us to be friends and you’ll see lots of pictures. I have a few on here too but not many.
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ok my love.
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my love this site is not opening here. showing
Ip address is not found.
do you have any other site on which you have your sweet pics.
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Are you there ?
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Its an Adult site.. as i am reading wikipedia about it.. ??
are you a porn star ? or doing it for fun ?
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Fun. I’ve got to go to work. Have a good night.
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Love you sweety
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Missing your saltu lips.. where are these morning kissess… ???
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Salty? Lol π
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hahhaha.. but now too sweet.. and i am enjoying it.. they are changing taste.. they are too juicy… β
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Hey darling ? what are you doing ?
what you like to eat & wear ?
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Hey beautiful …
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hey do you use whatsapp ?
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Somtime i think that why i dont do sucide.. ?
i want to die some time..
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Life is very hard. It took me several failed attempts to realize that life is a gift and that we must never let ourselves lose hope.
Think of life as a challenge and reward. Strive only to be your authentic self and live moment by moment. Don’t worry about the future or have pains about the past. Learn to let go of all of that however you can. Be the blessing the world needs by keeping your heart open. You were meant to be here. I have absolute roof of that. Because…..you are here. πππ
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thanks my love.. but somtime its very hard to survive.. but i will take care. and i am alive now only and because of you. because i transfer my life to you. now i cant do anything without your wish .β
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Ahhhhhh. What a gift and honor. I long for such a love.
Strive to be grateful for what you do have. When I get in a rut where I feel down and sad and angry at my circumstances I ask myself “why should I be given more if I can’t even be appreciative of what I have now?”.
Do you have your health? One good friend? A beautiful sunset to admire? Something! Find meaning to your life. Look for it. You’ve misplaced it or forgotten where it is. But it is there somewhere and if you can’t find it outside yourself the best place to look is within. π
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i love you…
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i love you alot..
do you use whatsapp ?
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No. I’m sorry.
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its ok.
but you can reply me same..π
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i Love You .
Do you Love me ?
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Do you really Like me or Love me ?…
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Macy whay you are not talking to me.?
what work you do for survive..?
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Happy Dipawali ..
its a very big festival in India..
Did you hear about it.
today is Dipawali..
When you will merry me an we will in India i will tell you and you must enjoy it..
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No. I have not heard of it. Are you Buddhist or Sikhs or??
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I am Hindu. its a hindu festival
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Oh yes. Ok. I do not know much about the Hindu religion I’m sorry.
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its ok. but its the oldest and very friendly and very good religion..
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Its the only religion who orders us that if we are plucking any leave from plant we ask for permision from plant.π
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That’s lovely. What a beautiful sentiment. I wish everyone viewed the world so lovingly.
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yes.. you are right everyine have to respect all religions.
Macy my love how can i see you ? i want to see you please..πβ
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In pictures? I explained how
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why you are not replying ?
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Do you know hindu religion ?
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Are you busy ?
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Busy day today. Client and chores and errands and dealing with a flea issue.
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ok..
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or dont want to talk to me ?ππππππππππππ
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Always be mine i cant think to leave you.. ππππ
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Never think i am going to forget you Macy. i am not going to force you. I am just asking my life from you. you are my Love My life my friend ever…βββββΊ
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tell me your name
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Macy
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May i know where are you frim
Macy ?
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Portland, Oregon
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great..
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USA
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ok… Macy
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My only question is: Why hasn’t Brad seen someone about his back pain so it can be dealt with?
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It’s western medicine. He has seen so many specialists. He has been having injections and is trying to stay off the major pain pills. It’s been an ordeal he is constantly working on. But he is in a lot of pain. Which is why he hasn’t been working. He can barely walk some days.
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Has he tried acupuncture?
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No. But if this does happen I will incorporate holistic health into his life. He’s been warned. Lol
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Oh, and now I have that song stuck in my head – thanks!
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Lol I know. It’s a good song. I was humming it while I wrote it.
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Saw your title… and the song has been playing in my head ever since.
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Lol. It’s stood the test of time for a reason.
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