God I love romance. I can’t help it. If I listed all the things that give me pure happiness in life the top 5 would include my children and romance. Divinity comes in there too of course.
I was questioning this morning how that ranking went. Is God truly first for me? I don’t know how to know with complete certainty the correct answer and I definitely don’t want to have it tested. So I think I’ll leave that question alone and just be happy with how it is. After all it’s a pretty long and fluid list and I’m sure it fluctuates vastly throughout my life.
I heard this great acoustic version of I Feel For You by Prince. I love him (RIP) and this song does not disappoint. So beautiful.
I have about 5 hours of bookkeeping to do today to get my taxes done. I thought I was done earlier this week but there was a glitch in their system and now I have to do it all over again. On the plus side I won’t have to pay for the service, it’s just more time and effort expenditure. Of which I’ve already spent way more than I wanted to. Bookkeeping is just inputting information using logic, math and fields. It’s generally easy; but easy doesn’t necessarily mean enjoyable, now does it? Lol
This parasite cleanse is kicking my ass. It’s my own damn fault of course. Because I’m being very aggressive with it and having some die-off symptoms. I threw up my lunch yesterday from the extreme nausea. This has really been helping my liver though. I can absolutely tell it has. But I am going to back off the dosage a bit to not feel so tired and overwhelmed by it.
My pores have been releasing toxins at a very high rate too because it’s making me a bit stinky. Better out than in, of course, but it’s not a Fabreeze experience for those within very close smelling distance. This is also a clear sign to back off because the skin is a less effective way to detox. I remember something I saw on detoxing equating clearing toxins out of your pores as if taking the trash out of your house by way of pushing it through a mesh window screen. Not efficient at all. Lol
I may go to Privata tonight. I’m not sure. Depends how tired I am later. I can always rally by way of cold shower/bath, but it’s not an obligation or necessity. So we shall see.
I was praying in bed this morning and I said to God. “Ok. You tell me where this is going.” I basically said if you want my life to go a more spiritual route then I need some ease. The contrast between monetary and spiritual needs has me working too hard in one direction and that’s fine if that’s where I need to be…. but you can’t ask me to effectively and efficiently do both. It’s just not possible. So I set my “requests” and said it’s up to you and that’s where I am leaving it….. in Divinity’s hands.
Then I had an epiphany while prepping my morning coffee. Somewhere in time and space I have been cursed upon. So I took some steps to counteract it and I immediately felt so much better; like a weighted blanket was taken off of me. I still have some things I want to do to make sure I’m protected from those evil intentions. To let more light in to this situation. Which also means forgiving that person/people for their ill will and setting peace within myself and the universe around the entire transaction.
I’m feeling very hopeful today and even serene. But I’ve got to get to work. These numbers won’t input themselves, unfortunately.