Bad Bitch Envy, 5 times a charm, lightening strikes, God’s Country

I’m generally not an envious person by nature. But I saw this BuzzFeed segment about Frankie Munez shooting his shot with Lizzo and I had feelings about it.

I should take a page from this. However, the thing is…..I know all too well the nuances we all live by and how there are many facets to one’s person. No one is in Diva mode 100% of the time. Even if so…. that’s absolutely not me.

But I do like to play. I do enjoy the dynamic. I do love being the recipient of such adoration, devotion and reverence.

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I’ve lived in the safest city in Oregon for almost five years now. This is in stark contrast to some cities I’ve lived and worked in, like Hollywood, Long Beach, Compton, Downtown LA and TJ. And yet I’ve never had to call the cops as much as I have living here. Now granted that circumstances are different. There were probably times I should have called the police before and just didn’t.

So we have: a peeping Tom, a stalker, a mystery car, a mailbox theft and today the kids caught fellow classmates setting a trash can on fire. They made sure it went out and I called the po-po primarily because one of the boys involved then started harassing the girls via text and social media and I was not having it. So now they may even have to go to mandatory fire prevention classes.

Choices have consequences; suppose it’s never too early to learn that; even if it is the hard way. Could have been worse. The fire could have gotten out of control. They are lucky that didn’t happen.

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Im so tired, but a sleepover with a total of 8 girls in my tiny house is not conducive to sound sleep, but I’m going to put in my best effort.

I got this message today from a past client. I can’t tell you how good it made me feel. It was the boost I have needed so much.

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Today we got a quick passing thunderstorm. I was looking out the window precisely as I caught the lightening strike come straight at me and then it stopped or veered. I lost track of it. A moment later the thunder roared and the entire house shook. It reminded me of another time something similar happened with lightening and then I flashed back to all the times I’ve had issues with light energy. Especially with lights burning out; street lights, home lights, flickering, etc. It used to happen a lot more as a child.

It’s something that I need and want to connect with again and learn to control, if possible. That surge of energy that I don’t seem to understand completely. The way it moves and dances with and around me. I want to learn to harness it. I hope this class I’m starting this week helps me with that.

Let’s see what happens. These spiritual lessons always seem to come with interesting experiences and outcomes. It’s always a totally unexpected gain.

And now I have that Live song “Lightening Crashes” in my head.

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I love this country. But I love humanity as a whole and the entire world much more. So when I heard the song “God’s Country” today I felt a bit sick to my stomach. Like I can sometimes see very clearly why other countries hate us. There are millions of people that want to come here; unquestionably. But there are many, many people who have absolutely no desire or interest in ever coming here and I can’t really blame them.

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Eyes closing. Must connect with my goddess self. I want sweet goddess dreams…… deep comfort to surround me, give me what I need, show me what I seek or if not that, then please let me have toe curling dream sex. Either one works good for me🤣……not gonna lie.

Night ya’ll. Sweet dreams.

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