How much of life can we take personally? All of it? Some of it? None of it? What we wish to take personal? The good things that happen to us? How much can we give ourselves credit for? How much can we be rightfully upset about?
Some people believe everything is destined. Some people believe we actually pick our lives before we even have them. Some people believe we are on our specific paths to learn something vital on personal spiritual journeys. Maybe.
Maybe not. I can’t say. Because truthfully some people have some pretty shitty lives and I would think that haven been given a choice in the matter beforehand they would not have selected that path at all. I can site examples but I’m sure you can all think of people that didn’t seem deserving of the injustices life handed them, including maybe yourselves.
So I can’t say. I would like to know but there isn’t a definitive way to ascertain the absolute truth to this all. There isn’t a way to understand every single nuance from every single angle and give absolute causation and explanation to it all.
How much really is circumstance vs randomness vs destiny vs karma? How much of what we experience is meant expressly for us? How much is just a continuum of the experience of living in this dimension, of living this “life” thing as we know it?
The way I see it and have almost always seen and understood it to be is that we are in our original forms (for illustration purposes) all like part of a cloud. Then we are born into individual drops of water. But we retain part of our knowing of being more than just an individual self. Yet we each now go on our own distinct voyage until weeks or millenia later we form again back into a cloud.
Is it a lottery which drop ends up where? Or is it just a manifestation of the infinite possibilities available to be had. Should we take any of it personal?
I suppose we all make those choices moment by moment for ourselves. We all choose what we take personal and what we don’t. And these very decisions are what shape us: whether we understand that or not.
This isn’t something easy to grapple with. It’s not something I expect a definitive answer to right this moment. It’s just something I’m sitting with.
We are all windows to our own souls though, aren’t we? So I’m just taking it all in and figuring it all out for myself, for my own peace of mind. One question and one glimpse of understanding at a time.