My eulogy

I remember reading somewhere a suggestion to write your epitath or eulogy rather and work your way back from there in life. I’ve been thinking of that a lot the last few days. Which is an odd thing to think about considering I can’t even clearly see 3 months into the future.

Right now I feel like I’m failing miserably at various roles in my life, bit if I can pinpoint what I want the end game to be, maybe now won’t feel so fucking hard.

I have a lot I want to do: places to go, things to learn, experiences to have. So it’s hard for me to narrow it down. What most clearly comes to mind is being a monk. However that almost seems laughable. For starters I don’t see myself being chaste or single forever. Secondly I hate religious orders. I can’t see myself subscribing to any one of them, nor even founding one. It goes against some of my very core beliefs about greed, indoctrination* and class systems.

So I’ll keep at this. I mean heck. I can theoretically rewrite it every frickin week if I want. It’s not set in stone and I’m not actually writing something that will be used. Its an idea. It doesn’t need to be perfect or accurate or stress inducing.

I’ve got to sit with it a bit more is all. It seems something that could help me tremendously right now; spiritually, emotionally and mentally. And those are all things I value and need.

So expect me to be writing that soon. Just don’t laugh please. I’m really gonna try to let loose. πŸ˜‹

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*specifically when talking about a religious environment that doesn’t let you question or criticize those beliefs.

Author: porngirl3

I have always enjoyed reading and writing. Maybe because I have always been on the quiet and reclusive side; which most people may not guess at first glance or if seeing me in a social setting, especially around people I am comfortable with but it’s also not something I have an issue with. I need solitude to recharge. Writing gives me the peace and time to renew myself...here that is offered to you for your enjoyment and pleasure as well. I hope. Lol

4 thoughts on “My eulogy”

  1. Yeah, I did that and I honestly don’t know how I feel about that. I was actually wondering a few days ago where the obituary I wrote got to and since I have all of my Word documents from way back when, I started to go look for it… then changed my mind – it can stay wherever it is. It’s what I’d like to see written about me… then reality kicks me in the nuts and says, “Even if it was written like that, um, you ain’t gonna know shit about it, will you?”

    Good point.

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    1. Very true. I’d love to see it. As soon as I write mine I’m going to challenge others to write and link their own. If you ever change your mind and want to share I am truly interested in seeing it. πŸ’–πŸ’‹

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      1. Wherever it is, it’s going to stay there and, sorry, I’m not going to change my mind about it because it doesn’t reflect reality. I know what I’d like for people to say about me once I’m gone but the fact remains that whatever they might say, I won’t know about it. I could, like some folks I know, write my own obituary and, in my will, state that it be posted as I wrote it… except, I’m dead – how do I know they did ask I requested?

        One reason why you toot your own horn when you can… because no one will do it for you and when you die, you won’t know if they did or not.

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