Just heard the John Lennon song for the first time by this title. Sad song, suppose the world has been ending for all of time….. probably. Lol
I realize I have been isolating myself a lot lately, but I’m not feeling that it’s a negative thing.
I also noticed this morning that Brad left his ladder at my house. His dog got ran over a few days before we last talked (last week). I made the dick move of severing ties with him then. I had just kind of had it though. He was making me feel bad for being myself and not living up to his expectations because he had his “poor me” thing going on. Like I don’t have my own shit to deal with.
I figured this would put the last nail in the coffin. Prior to this I had thought we could remain friends but that was just getting way too hard and we were both very disappointed and hurt.
But I wish I knew how Max (the dog) is and hoping Brad is ok too. I almost texted his family but then I didn’t want to have to explain the situation and I’m not sure how they feel about me. Oh well. That bridge doesn’t feel torched to the ground yet, but also no foresight to how or when I’ll ever see him again. But this is just my perspective. I could be way off.
I’m not ready or wanting to date right now either. I’ve had offers and opportunities but no incentive or motivation to do it. I am however going to a CFNM (clothes females, naked men) event soon. I’m super excited because I’ve never been to one. The event is during the day, and dry. I tend to usually have a drink to really get myself into the role, but I’m glad to be challenged to bypass that.
I’m most looking forward to talking with other Domme’s. It’s always so thrilling to hear their stories. And being surrounded by naked men will be so exhilarating. It’s a no play event (the dungeon will be closed) which is odd but sure why not? Guess it’s more of a tantalizing experience for everyone then, because if the desire is there it must be continued elsewhere. So the temptation must then be very strong. Lol
Fun, fun!! Can’t wait to tell you all about it. I took a dose of THC last night, finally. I wrote many, many blogs. I wanted to go through and edit them while in a sober state, so I may or may not publish them when I go back to them later today. We shall see.