Bad guy

I hate being a single mom. Not just for financial reasons but also because I have to play the bad guy so often. I never really get a break from that role. Today was a major fucking calamity and I don’t want to talk about it really.

But sometimes the idea of running away is the only good thought that comes to my mind on these difficult days when the consensus seems to be to hate me because I enforce a rule or make them do something they don’t want to do. Because (shocker) I’m the parent and sometimes I have to do that. It sucks. Royally.

I hate it. I absolutely hate it, but if they make it to adulthood safely, healthily, and have their own families one day… they will understand how hard it is. Until then, I seem to have no choice but to shoulder it alone.

I’m so very overdue for a crying day. So very, very overdue.

😭😭😭

Author: porngirl3

I have always enjoyed reading and writing. Maybe because I have always been on the quiet and reclusive side; which most people may not guess at first glance or if seeing me in a social setting, especially around people I am comfortable with but it’s also not something I have an issue with. I need solitude to recharge. Writing gives me the peace and time to renew myself...here that is offered to you for your enjoyment and pleasure as well. I hope. Lol

4 thoughts on “Bad guy”

    1. Thank you!!

      I have my worries, like all parents I’m sure. I worry most about drug abuse and suicide. They seem much more pervasive then when I was a kid. I try so hard to be a rock for them. To make sure they know how much I love them and am here for them under all circumstances, while still holding them accountable for their actions and responsibilities in life. Such a balancing act to have to do, especially alone.

      I appreciate that looking in from the outside your opinion is that I am doing well. I can’t say I have succeeding in life at all that many things. But the few things I seem to be okay at, including most importantly parenting, are worth the heartache of failing at all the rest. Lol 💋

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