Wait, what? NO!!!!!!
My aunt wants me to go with her to church. I am going to try and back out of it. I would rather stay and clean her kitchen like I was planning on doing. But I can’t stomach arguing with her anymore. So if she insists I’ll go. However realistically I run out of steam about 6pm (9pm Easter time, lol). By the time we go to church, go get coffee and socialize with her friend, head back and have dinner I will not want to spend 4 hours cleaning her kitchen and floors.
And we are finally getting out of the apartment for a bit tomorrow so it won’t happen at all if it doesn’t happen today. Tomorrow I get to ride on the special senior citizen bus with her. It’s no limo, but it will be an interesting experience. I like seniors, always have.
I have to thank Catholic school for that one. They would take us to senior centers to hang out with the folks and it was always a very pleasant experience, even though it felt scary for everyone at first. Lol
That is one of only two things I appreciated about my eldest 3rd grade teacher, cruella that she was otherwise. She took the kids to the senior center several times throughout the year and she made sure their writing was legible and very clear. Although I’m not sure instilling deep seeded fear and making little kids cry habitually was worth it, but even she had good points. No matter that eventually I joined the ranks of the parents wanting her fired. This is where my love/hate relationship with unions was furthered.
Well. I’m just going to let my aunt decide what she wants me to do. It’s the only thing to do with stubborn women. Lol. I should know.
I was telling the sissy boi last night how much I want a sub/slave of my own. Then I woke up thinking of those handsome vanilla cis men there last night too. The thing is….I like to lead my own life. If I change course for a man he damn well better be worth it and I haven’t found that to be the case yet. So my life is hard. So it can feel pretty lonely. Well….so be it. It’s mine. There is triumph there, even through the pain and heartache.
Who knows what life has in store for me. Right now I’m just thinking of church. I didn’t see that coming. It’s going to be really hard to not roll my eyes throughout most of it. But I’ll try to draw any lessons I can from it. It’s not all crap. I used to really enjoy it as a kid. Plus I’ll meet the people she interacts with and see the things she does that add meaning to her life. This will probably be my last chance to hang out with her before she’s off to her next soul’s adventure. But then again…….one never knows what any day brings for any one of us. The mystery of life is probably the funnest and scariest part of it all.
Let’s just hope she doesn’t feel the need to completely douse me in holy water. Lol