We are all dynamic. We are all so multifaceted. We are not so easy to pin down. Psychologist and scientist may try to solve us like a Rubik’s cube and map us out, but we will always jump the algorithm. Because we are not machines. We are each so brilliantly chaotic in our own individual ways.
I was thinking today. How am I a deep pacifist who supports gun rights? How am I a marriage seeker who believes in adding play partners and others into the mix? How am I a person who deeply believes in God and Heaven and Hell and yet absolutely hates religions? How am I a woman who deeply embraces her femininity and yet would love to have my own real dick? Lol. On and on my contradictions abound…….
But instead of questioning them I embrace them because they make me me. Uniquely, perfectly imperfect me. I make claims to be no one else. Fortunately, or I’d be screwed because I really don’t know who else I’d be.
The issues I most have with this world aren’t the juxtapositions or the chaos. The issues I have are that we are stupid human beings. Our emotional and spiritual levels of being are so primitive we may as well still live in caves and yet we have all these scientific and military advances. It’s like giving sharp cleavers to a bunch of 2 year olds. It’s beyond asinine. Yet here we are.
I think I see it all very clearly. Which is a blessing and a curse. Because what can I do about it? I can’t do much, but I resolve myself to do what I can. And being authentically myself is one way. I figure it this way, we must lead by example in life, it is truly the only way. So if I can be happy, if I can have acceptance, if I can be myself, if I can bring even a tiny bit of love and light into this world through my actions, my thoughts, my efforts then I’ve succeeded beyond measure.
And if being me puts me in all different sorts of categories, and if people want to brand me as such, even as I move into different areas of being, so be it. I’m not trying to be a moving target. I’m not trying to be a target at all. I’m just trying to be me…..some days that’s hard enough. Trust me. Lol 💋