I haven’t seen Brad in a month. We’ve barely talked and dwindled down to almost no texting too. He knows he is in the friend zone.
But I’m craving snuggle time and I would like to see him. Except he’s an hour away and I’m also feeling very lazy. I don’t think he wants to make the drive to come get me. His back is still out and me friend zoning him has him depressed. Ho hum.
There is a song called “what if this is all the love you’re going to get?” and just the title was enough to send me into a bit of a tailspin the other day. I’ve always said, better alone than in bad company. But Brad isn’t bad company.
I was watching Seinfeld’s Netflix comedy show with Seth Rogan and Seth says….. I go to parties and I am not one of those people that go over the line. Like no one has to worry and hold their breath wondering what I’m going to say. But as a comedian I do go to that line and dance around on it. (- paraphrased, I can’t remember the exact words). Brad crosses that line often, especially sexually and while I probably shouldn’t care and why should it bother me, it does and I do and it’s an uncomfortable position to be put in and I’m not the kind of person to shut my mouth about it, especially with someone I know and care about. And ugghhhhh….
What’s a girl to do? Some people pay for cuddles. Lol. I guess in one way or another we all do. I suppose for now I’ll just have to go without.
Ok.. way too much to do to be in a funk today. I have to call for service on the washing machine but I’m way too embarrassed to have someone even see my laundry room or the rest of the messy house. 🙄🙄🙄
eBay work to do. I slept 10 hours. Making up for the lack of any sleep the night before. Physically fine, emotionally low, mentally so-so. Guess it about evens out. I’ll take it as a win. Mr. Rogers told me I already won anyway. 😝