God I’m so sick of it. I’ve told 3 people about my problems in the last few days and I feel worse for it. Talking about it just stirs it all up, gets me all emotional. It’s been a lot….. way to much.
I need to step away from it all. It’s not a need to bury my head in the sand. It’s my need to focus on the positive, on what I can do, on what I can be grateful for, on what makes me and my life happy.
I just can’t go around complaining and explaining it and not feel the intense pain of it. I can’t. I’m human. This shit hurts. I’m not a robot. I’m not a machine. Flesh and blood like all y’all. I wasn’t spared any of it. This epoch has been challenging…..is challenging. I’m dealing with it the best way I can, but I can’t keep talking about it.
I’d rather not. I’m all fucking talked and cried out at the moment. We will pause for an intermission now. Cue the tranquil music, turn on the lights, let’s stretch out our legs and get a cool beverage. Let’s watch the stars and enjoy the fresh air and listen to the kids laughing while they play. Life is too fucking short to wallow.
I get that people want to know, but I’m officially done sharing it. We are moving on people. You hear me……