Einstein took mindless jobs so he could think about his theories unencumbered by other nuisances. God, imagine what he could do now with the internet and the scientific research available. That would be amazing.
Maybe I need a mindless job. If only they paid actual livable wages. But when I get an idea, if I don’t research it or write it down immediately it escapes me completely and I’m off to the next thought. I’m not saying all or even most of my thoughts are amazing. But I’ve forgotten more things than the world has time to even read. Lol
I know there are artistic endowments still available that people give to “worthy” individuals. I detest having to prove myself to people. I am who I am. Take it or leave it. I don’t grovel. I don’t take a knee for money. I might as well whore myself out; that at least feels more authentic than pandering for acceptance from people who feel themselves “better than” and qualified to judge me.
I hate all these stupid games life forces you to play. I just want to stop playing sometimes. What would that look like though? I want to just be allowed to be me freely, unencumbered by the stupidities society says are necessary for a “proper” human to be successful in life. Hogwash. All of it. Utter bullshit.