There is a cool song by that title. The song is good. The beats, the lyrics, good. This is not about that song. This is just about life in general. My stance with life.
I’m holding on loosely. Doesn’t mean I’m letting go. Just means that it’s all transitory and when it’s meant to go, so be it. Where I’m meant to go. Where life takes you. No use holding on too tight. You can’t readily move on to a new adventure carrying all the gear for and from your last adventure still on ya. Now can you?
People are a different story. Still hold on loosely but doesn’t mean you don’t keep them in your heart forever. There are people who were kind to me as a young child that I still have a place for in my heart. Fortunately the heart has no boundaries and can hold the world, the universe, infinity in it, if desired and allowed.
Today I woke up trying to find Nirvana: deep acceptance, complete truth, open heart, absolutely no fear. So much easier on paper. I should create a fearnometer. It could calculate how much fear/stress people have in their lives on a tangible scale. That way people can self monitor. Guess the heart rate does that somewhat, but on a deeper and more accurate level even.
People don’t understand just how insidious fear: desperation, anger, sadness, bitterness, depression, anxiety, procrastination, self-sabotage, and the myriad endless ways fear present itself in this lifetime…..can be. How it effects absolutely everything in our lives; from simple decisions to subconscious urgings and even maybe most importantly: health.
So what is the antidote? The easiest and absolutely hardest thing to do; simply have faith. Allowing that pain comes anyway in life; whether you guard your fortress with pitchforks or not. No one escapes it, no matter how hard we may try and think it possible…it isn’t. Because we have hearts, we care, we are sentient, emotional beings.
My life is one big attempt to find bliss within, because ultimately that is the only true path to it. It isn’t necessarily easy, but then again how many extraordinary endeavors in life worth doing are?