You fall the way you lean

Right? As per The Lorax. I love that movie.

I’ve decided that whether I pursue this as a career and/or as a “lifestyle” that I am going all in on spirituality. Frankly I’ve been running from it for far too long and now that I’ve been casually making my way back I feel like it’s really time I delved deeply and full force into it.

Some people speak of methodology with spirituality. Some people love rituals and chants and scriptures. Some people follow religions, texts, scholars, sages. The beauty and crux of my own situation is that I have had so many experiences with spirit that I know none of that really matters.

It is the direct experience of opening up to Divinity, Christ consciousness, God, Oneness, heart source, love, whatever you want to call it that is the most crucial part of the equation. None of the accoutrements matter at all. The act of connecting your soul to higher consciousness is all that is of importance here and how you do that is mostly irrelevant.

Anyone at any time, at any moment, at any place, in any way can connect to Divinity. The tools and tricks that are available to help connect oneself are great and I don’t discount any of them, especially group prayer, self reflection and being in nature.

It’s hard to straddle a deeply intense spiritual quest while having to also manage materialistic and physical needs, let alone the needs of my children and the heavy responsibility of nurturing these beings in my direct care, who depend on me for their stability and safety.

But yes. This is what I’ve decided. No vow of poverty. No life of complete servitude to humanity. But a life of finding the answers for myself and maintaining open that connection. This is my path. It’s always been my path. I just never fully accepted and embraced it until now. It’s a strangely peaceful feeling even though this road is no clearer defined than it was yesterday.

But the intention is now clear. The allowance. The desire. The full embracing of that which I’ve been skirting yet also longing for, for so long.

It’s taken many bruises and bumps. It’s taken much pain and sacrifice. It’s taken more than I can ever imagine was actually necessary had I just listened from the get-go. Lol. But here we are. Finally. I’ll cheer that and forgive myself the rest. Can’t change the past but I can embrace the present and give it all I have. πŸ™πŸ½πŸ’–πŸ₯°πŸ’‹πŸ‘πŸ½πŸŒΊπŸ¦‹πŸŒˆβ£οΈπŸŒž

Author: porngirl3

I have always enjoyed reading and writing. Maybe because I have always been on the quiet and reclusive side; which most people may not guess at first glance or if seeing me in a social setting, especially around people I am comfortable with but it’s also not something I have an issue with. I need solitude to recharge. Writing gives me the peace and time to renew myself...here that is offered to you for your enjoyment and pleasure as well. I hope. Lol

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