Where did it all go wrong?

How far back do we want to go here?

I remember this hunky older gentleman asking me why I was soliciting a very sexual man on Tinder. He said that was unnecessary, as all men are very sexual. I wanted to laugh. I wanted to cry. What was I suppose to tell him? I didn’t even know the extent of everything then? I had yet to learn the deeper tragedy of it all.

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I’ve kept Brad up to date on everything as it’s all shifted around. Today the first thing he does is send me some pornographic pictures of himself and I realize I’ve wasted a year on my life on someone far too sexual. Someone who isn’t capable of putting me and my needs first. To no one’s surprise but mine I’m sure. I thought this is what I wanted.

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The teenager is having a serious meltdown about moving. I can’t blame her. I would to…. in her situation, I’m sure. She has wonderful friends, a very sweet and doting boyfriend, is doing great in school, loves it here. I tried to keep us here; where she really wants to be. But it’s all out of my control now. I just can’t keep fighting this uphill battle any longer.

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Author: porngirl3

I have always enjoyed reading and writing. Maybe because I have always been on the quiet and reclusive side; which most people may not guess at first glance or if seeing me in a social setting, especially around people I am comfortable with but it’s also not something I have an issue with. I need solitude to recharge. Writing gives me the peace and time to renew myself...here that is offered to you for your enjoyment and pleasure as well. I hope. Lol

7 thoughts on “Where did it all go wrong?”

  1. I may not fully understand the post here but it sounds like brad is trying to use this situation to taunt or take advantage of you? That’s really scummy and evil. Jesus, Miss PG3, my heart hurts for your situation but mainly because I know what it feels like as a young teenager to be forced to move and seeing my mother suffer. In fact my mother was in your exact same situation, and she had to work inane hours as a waitress to pay the bills and provide for us. I never had any friends bc of how often we moved. I’m truly sorry you and your daughter have to go through this. I wish I could swoop in and drop some donations your way but I literally just started my own job after a long vacation. Try to reach out wherever you can, fight for your stability.

    I’ll be rooting for you and your family.

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    1. Thanks Colt,

      That’s ok sweetie. Everyone has their own trajectory in life. You may not have had friends but you have a good heart. It’s more than can be said of a lot of people and it counts so much more than vast amounts of gold. 💋

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      1. I just thought you may have referenced him as the incubus lol.. I hope that was just a metaphor! I really hope you end up figuring out how to stay in Oregon. Good luck. T_T

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  2. Miss, there are groups that can provide you with great resources to assist you. Please visit a counseler or at least post on reddit /r/ FinancialPlanning seeking advice.

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    1. It’s way past that point. I’ve already received far more government assistance than I ever wanted to need in my life.

      It’s ok. It will all be fine. I refuse to see it any other way.

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