Modern day nightmares

I had a dream that as I was noticing on Amazon that anytime someone leaves a review claiming to check it again, had it replaced, or whatever but is going to update the review; never does. I’ve never seen it. It’s because the people get killed. Amazon wants to protect their bottom line so much they are complicit in review sabotage and boosting so much to sell, sell, sell is helping make these killings happen. And if you think Amazon doesn’t have that kind of power in reality I have a bridge to sell you.


Jeff Bezos for all his idiocy seems a decent guy; I think. I don’t like all his business practices and I used to think he was a humanitarian (which I think he is much more of an egomaniac now*) but I don’t think he’s capable of such inhumanity to not put his money in saving the planet; if it was salvageable. But then again rich people are sooo very, very brainwashed to believe they know best when they don’t look at all sides of a problem, they only look at one or too few and believe an agenda.

An agenda that isn’t a win/win for all; even the people protesting against it; is not a win AT ALL.


*I want to believe his efforts to find a new planet are to ensure the safety of all people and not just the Bezos of the world. It reminds me so much of The Galaxy at the end of the Universe book series that way, that this kind of thinking can lead to self imposed annhiliation. I can’t really believe we have killed the earth so badly, that we don’t have the technology to make whatever mass structures we need to survive, some form of alchemy, prayer, change of heart in humanity can’t stop the tide of all this anger, hatred, fear and selfishness killing the world. Literally!!!

One action at a time.

There has got to be a win/win!!!!


(On a totally different note: being with Brad made me feel safe. That’s a feeling that is hard for me. It’s why I work so hard at it I guess. It’s why I strive to bring calmness and peace and light inside of myself. But having people around that give you that feeling feels so good.

It’s just that he also sometimes made me feel very scared and while I love it in the much more controlled environment of BDSM, I don’t like it all over my emotions and desires. Maybe that makes sense and maybe it doesn’t.


Nightmares are a real thing in real life too. I’m trying like hell to be happy in this life; really, truly allow myself to be happy and for me the number one rule for that seems to be that I gotta like the view from inside. I am human yes. I am fallible. Yes. But I want my heart aligned with my actions as much as absolutely possible at all times because to me that’s a battle worth living out.)

Author: porngirl3

I have always enjoyed reading and writing. Maybe because I have always been on the quiet and reclusive side; which most people may not guess at first glance or if seeing me in a social setting, especially around people I am comfortable with but it’s also not something I have an issue with. I need solitude to recharge. Writing gives me the peace and time to renew that is offered to you for your enjoyment and pleasure as well. I hope. Lol

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