I forgive myself
For absolutely everything that has transpired in this lifetime
Both against me
And towards other
The first because carrying around that anger, hatred, judgement (etc.) impacts me negatively
It creates this bond between the purveyor and myself
A link that is much better severed than linked to me in perpetuity
The latter because while it absolutely does not absolve me from reparations if and when and however I can accomplish that, if possible….
It does dissolve me from guilt and self-loathing and any attempt to be able to move past it and have a better life. It keeps me tethered to the error and increases the likelihood of repetition even if solely because it is always in the background, always repeating on autoplay in my mind, heart and soul. It burns its image inside one. Does any of that sound good?
Then also releasing the person that caused pain by forgiving them, releases that gun in the hand, releases one from being judge, jury and executioner. It lets powers beyond ones own take that job over, which is rightfully theirs and not ours to begin with (I believe).
And releasing oneself from the past, while it absolutely does not give one any permission whatsoever to clear the slate to simply keep being a harm, it does give one peace of mind; enough to see into the reality of the situation and answer some important why’s for oneself.
Life is not easy. We are human being having a human existence caught in this existential dichotomy.
For that reason alone forgiveness is not only absolutely necessary; it is a marker on the road to true freedom.