To anyone taking offense to this
To me
To my writings
I say
“Whatever!”
You obviously have some sense of superiority and self-righteousness going on up there in that brain of yours
But look deep into your heart and tell me what it says and I guarantee you it’s either anger or fear
And if you still taking a good hard look at yourself can still say no
And you can tell why then I can probably most certainly explain to you how that is just an excuse
A bad excuse
To be self-involved
To let yourself act on behalf of your ego
And………
Excuses are just that.
Excuses
Justifications
Ways to make yourself feel better
So……..
Take it somewhere else
My pity bucket is empty right now
Now…….
not that I don’t have compassion
I’m just so over all these people who think “they are so good”
And do almost absolutely zero
To back that up
(Especially anything that isn’t in their best interest to do already.)
I’m so done pandering to people’s narcissism and neurotic behaviors
I really am
And while I love people so much
And while I can generally see the good in absolutely everyone
It still may be why I’ve just let myself become such the deeply introverted person I feel I always have been inside
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People want to believe in the boogeyman, but the truth always has been and always will be more complex than we could ever completely understand and that is almost the entire beauty of it all to me.
Hugs!!! 🙂
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Lol. It’s building. Crying. It’s been escaping here and there but the huge release is coming.
That’ll feel good. 😌😌😌
💖🙏🏽🦋
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I love reading you. 😘
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Awwwwww
Thanks…..
I sometimes feel very self conscious about my writing. Guess that’s every writer. Right? To some degree.
https://music.youtube.com/watch?v=Y6-0jkJPh1k&feature=share
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You should not. Is this your playlist? I am a little stupid lol
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I do. Don’t you?
No. It’s just one song.
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I use to. I would never share my work with anyone. Now though I like what I am writing. I like what I am saying. Why? Because I am finally writing creatively using poetry to tell stories. Before it was always reliant on my emotions my moods now I write because that is who I am. The essence of my being is words and writing. It took me really really really long time to accept that though.
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That’s so beautiful. “The essence of my being is words and writing”. I have also felt that way all my life. First with reading and then with writing.
One day I hope to be able to write my books. That would make me so very happy.
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Another thing and I have been sitting here thinking of how to put it without sounding douchy…..you know on Facebook memories appear? Well a few times a memory comes up and I start reading and I am thinking holy hell this is good. Why can I not remember this? I need to find out who wrote it. And then I discovered it was me. And I was in awe of myself that I had/have this capacity to create. Yesterday I wrote a thought I had:
My poetry is everyone’s poetry.
When you read my words they are colored by your experiences…….
it is your story I am telling.
July 13/19
And you will. Sometimes those of us with the most to say take a little longer to find our voices. 😘
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Poignant and meaningful as every Jay-lyn. Thanks for your kindness and outreach and just being you. 🥰🙏🏽💖
You’re words speak deeply to me. I resonate with all you said. But also…..
Sometimes I read what I wrote and say “yeesh, that was a doozy” or I’m like “how is that amount of pot legal and healthy?” and yet it is. Thankfully. Lol
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Lmao
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