We are communal people, and also energetically interwoven. We communicate emotionally as well as through our senses and beyond. We are all linked.
So when I’m angry, advertently or not, it has a ripple effect. Most times, like a drop of water in a puddle, it doesn’t just dissipate. It creates a wave of more emotions around itself.
Positive typically begets positive and negative typically begets negative.
Brad and I were talking about the recent Antifa violence in Portland vs the Charlottesville driver at the rally that killed that woman. He immediately goes on the defense. Telling me Antifa are terrorist and that guy in Charlottesville was a mentally deranged loan guy. Because no ye wasn’t inspired by all the hatred and violence of the “white movement” or nationalist movement or whatever the racist group wants to call itself.
Ugghhh. I hate how everyone can justify the bad behavior from their own camp. At least own it. There are violent fringes on both the left and right. Who’s to say these incidents aren’t purposefully being made to happen? Does anyone really know anyway?
All I know is we can’t keep making these justifications. At the end of the day we all have to like who we are looking at in the mirror and we need to be able to take off the blinders and be honest about who that really is, underneath all the masks.
This is why I try to be just who I am. I try to be honest.
I asked God today why am I dealing with all this? Why is this my tribulation? And the response I got was, “didn’t you ask for the truth?”. Kind of like one of those “this is your life, what would you like me to tell you” moments with a shrug.
And all I can do is bow my head in silence. Yes. Yes I did ask for truth above all else.
But to get back to my original thoughts. I want to try to ripple out love. That’s what I want to do, but the best ripples come from a place of genuineness. Which means that I have to have that love deep inside of myself to begin with. I know it’s there. I know it’s endless. I’m just struggling so much within myself right now it’s like trying to find a sign in the deep fog.
A lot of this is having to be navigated on intuition and a lot of it is people holding a candle up for me. Much like we held one up for the lost and departed souls. I feel very lucky and blessed that Divinity seems to always leave markers. It’s just a matter of being open to them and sometimes that itself is the hardest battle of the day.
May your battles today lead you to truth and happiness. 🙏🏽🙏🏽🙏🏽