It sounds ominous
But not as horrible as pedophile I suppose
That’s what I am
A deviant
I can admit that
I like sex hard sometimes
I like it beyond passion and intimacy
I want it to hurt
Or burn
Or make my heart feel like it’s going to beat out of my chest
That is just the level I like to feel in life sometimes
Whether it’s spiritually
With love towards the people in my life
Or sexually
That’s just the range of emotion I need
Is it dysfunctional?
No…..
I truly believe
Deep in my heart
That as long as it isn’t harming myself
(More than I want π)
And isn’t harming anyone else
(More than they want π)
Or absolutely anyone else not even involved in the play
Especially not children
Then hey……
It’s ok
All ok
But the minute it does violate any of the house rules
Is the moment to maybe step away
That’s not something I would not readily do if needed
We all have who we are
Who we want to be
Who we think we are
I’m not saying don’t be true to yourself
If anything I’m saying that more than anything
But yourself can be whoever you need and want that to be
Can’t it?
After all….
We are all more magnificent than we ever even realize