This isn’t what you think it’s about.
My middle has pneumonia. Again. We’ve lived in Portland 5 years now to the month. Every year one if not all of us girls have gotten pneumonia. Every year. The middle had breathing issues at birth and has a weak immune system. The smallest has a genetic disorder, which also disrupts her immune system or vice versa. This is a lot like those diseases I see people with that seem heavily parasitic. It is a chicken/egg battle.*
I never complain about the weather here. Never. Ok. You caught me. One day. One. It was the first year we moved here and it was so dark outside I thought it was deep dusk, going into night all day. It was horrendously depressing. I knew I suffered from a bit if SAD (seasonal depression) but that took the cake for me and I thought “nope God, I’m throwing in the towel. If there are more days like this I won’t make it”. (Talk about lack of coping skills and faith in myself. Lol But I probably would still feel the same way now.) There has not been another like that day since. Although today was the best, loudest, brightest, funnest thunderstorm I’ve ever seen here.
I was smiling like a chesire cat on the drive home except when the couple in front of me decided to go 10 miles an hour down a beautiful country road I thought I would have almost all to myself. Locals….go and ruin everything again. 🤣🤣🤣 (Inside joke to Portlanders.)
Do I miss California weather? Nope. Not one bit. Especially since the sun causes me severe allergies sometimes. Inflammation which my body can’t handle. I love it here. It’s so beautiful. But I’m still trying to figure out, does it love me and my family? Lol
It mostly feels so. Yes. Very fortunately.
But I really wish these munchies wouldn’t get sick. I should theoretically be able to cure them. Honestly I haven’t tried more than a few times to help them energetically. I don’t know why. If I were honest with myself it’s fear of failing. Maybe. But nothing can go wrong. I just need to replenish myself first and I’ve been so tired and lazy and downtrodden.
Come on now.
Sorry. I know it’s a serious subject. I don’t have the answers, but I can’t be bothered living in constant fear either. Tell me how to help. I’d rather volunteer at my local park for a clean out. I’d rather recycle correctly and as much as possible. I’d rather not put more products into mother Earth that will kill her further. I just don’t buy them or use them. This I can do.
This I got. What else you need? I help where I can from where I am. How I can. What else is there?
*Was the immune system compromised first or did the illness compromise the immune system? They obviously feed off each other looping upwards or spiraling downward, but who comes first I can’t say. Same with parasites and these illnesses I see come through (although inflammation is a huge factor too). It’s all so complex and fascinating and yet when you look at it from many different angles it seems to make perfect sense. The body seems perfectly orchestrated in its own beautiful majestic way.