I’m still so groggy. My mind feels numb and my emotions are so low. I can’t wait to go to sleep tonight. I am NEVER taking benzo’s again!! The few people I know that take them are addicted and regularly mix them with alcohol. Seeing how it can give you blackouts I can see now how clearly dangerous these can be.
So now I’m on a quest to find something that can calm my anxiety that is more plant based. Although I think I’ll still pick up the docs script and give those a try….. assuming they aren’t benzo’s. Thursday I start my morning exercise routine so that should help tremendously. Exercise is such a great anxiety relief and it lasts all day. Not like sex that just spikes your levels for a little bit although it is a really great sleep aid.
Drugs just aren’t my thing really. Says the woman wanting to try mild hallucinogenics. Lol. But what I’m trying is plant based, has been used for thousands of years and is in such small doses that it last mere minutes. So really. Not the same as taking LSD at all. Although I did quite enjoy that as a youth. The handful of times I did it.
I have a full day of work tomorrow. So glad. It will take my mind off of me and my woes. This is why I love volunteer work so much. This is why when my ex had the kids that brief time I went out to feed the homeless. It takes you away from yourself and sometimes it’s where you need to be. Sometimes looking at other people’s problems and feeling their plight in life makes you more keenly aware that we all have our own tribulations and it’s humbling and somewhat soothing as well. Like the ship of hardship and pain isn’t a lonely trajectory after all. Is it?
There is always another day…… at least until there isn’t and when there isn’t I won’t be here to worry about it. So really. Lol