“I’m ok” they say

No bitch*, no you ain’t. Lol

My funnest clients are my most difficult ones. The ones that self advocate for themselves to the 100th degree. Even though they can be quite the handful, I find their level of self awareness and demanding style very straightforward and I can respect that. They are paying for a service and have a level of expectation for their comfort and happiness. I also tend to find them very amusing usually because this manifests differently for everyone and it’s always fun to see how.

The clients I actually get more frustrated with are the ones that are so meek and unaware of their own desires and preferences that they don’t want to “put me out” and ask nothing of me. It’s one thing if you want your space and to be left at peace and quite another to simply not want to be a bother. In the documentary “Heal” they called that the Cancer attitude, and yes they mean the illness.

Self advocate people!!!!!!!

It just frustrates me to no end. It truly does. I want to shake them and just be like “what do you really want??”, “Life is going to pass you by, speak your truth dammit.” But of course I say nothing. Absolutely nothing. It’s not my place and I don’t see why I would rattle someone’s cage that is obviously already rattled.

I was reading about Noa Pothoven. Her story absolutely sickens me. She self advocated by killing herself directly based on being abused and not being able to cope with it any longer. She was so young. Girl suicide in on the rise and is hitting levels never seen before. This is ridiculous and beyond unacceptable.

My own daughter, middle, is at high risk for suicide. She has even spoken of it, indirectly. Saying we were better off without her and not wanting to be around. Last summer this was a huge issue. So, odd as this may seem, I suggested she do a parasite cleanse. The last time I had her do one was when we were living in Murrieta and she came down with horrendous allergies. Just misery: eyes puffy and watery, sniffles constantly, foggy headed. She was suffering. We did the cleanse and she hasn’t had allergies since.

And after we did the protocol last summer she hasn’t talked of suicide ideation again. Now I can’t say that this was the only factor or that she is out of the woods. I’ll always have to be extra vigil with this one. I’m happy she is so forthcoming with me, even as we sometimes have issues communicating.

So yeah……..

I’m not saying we need more whiners in the world and it’s perfectly ok to sincerely not want anything in life. In fact I’m all for it. If that is your truth. But we all need to self advocate for our truth, for ourselves, for our lives. We all need to be our biggest and loudest advocate and cheerleader. Don’t we?



*This goes for both male and female clients.

Author: porngirl3

I have always enjoyed reading and writing. Maybe because I have always been on the quiet and reclusive side; which most people may not guess at first glance or if seeing me in a social setting, especially around people I am comfortable with but it’s also not something I have an issue with. I need solitude to recharge. Writing gives me the peace and time to renew myself...here that is offered to you for your enjoyment and pleasure as well. I hope. Lol

7 thoughts on ““I’m ok” they say”

    1. What do you mean? The girl suicide rate? They we’re reporting that a show on Netflix that was based around a teenage girl committing suicide spiked suicide rates. We are a bit of a monkey see, monkey do society. Unfortunately, but then again. Of we modeled healthy behavior, self love, self acceptance, maybe that would be emulated too. There is that hope.

      Or did you mean something else?


      1. Exactly what you said. Girl suicide rate. When a young girl whom I love like my own attempts suicide over what earlier generations would consider a trifle, we have a problem.

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      2. Agreed. Coping skills/resiliency, a healthy sense of what really matters in life and hope/faith need to be taught to children early and consistently. We do kids a huge disservice in life, not adequately preparing them in life, in real world situations. Leaning to handle their emotions and stress. Kids have it so hard.

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      3. The granddaughter of a friend whom I’ve know since she was a baby. Some of her classmates said or did something cruel. She tried to hurt herself. She is OK now.

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      4. Oh good. So sad though.

        I remember how scared I was when we had bomb and earthquake drills as a child and now they have active shooter drills except they have to watch as schools across the country suffer more and more of these occurrences. This is just one little stress factor more in their life.


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