I’ve had a lot of time to think about this and while there are many roads one can take in life…… at this point I’m really wanting to pivot to a better place, a more wholesome place.
I think that because of my trauma I may never be able to completely turn off my sexual response to stimuli that mimics my abuse but at the same time what you focus on in life becomes your truth. Society as a whole still refuses to look at its own issues so why should I sound the horn? Some people can’t seem to practice true empathy for anything outside of their narrative frame.
After reading this article something became very clear to me. I need to stop trying to save the world. I need to stop trying to fix problems so huge and complex that the task is beyond insurmountable. I need to stop picking this scab. I need to focus on what I can do. For now that means getting myself and my life in order.
1) financial stability
2) emotional, mental and physical health and well-being
3) doing things that support the first two
4) hanging out with people that augment to the beauty and richness of my life in positive and healthy ways
I don’t know what’s next but if I can do these 4 things I think I’ll be fine, have a very good life and not be full of regrets and wishful thinking on my deathbed. Which ain’t nothing. It ain’t nothing at all. And we’ll see what else I can accomplish. This life isn’t over yet. Not by a longshot as far as I’m concerned. 😉