I’m exhausted

Just got back from the airport, picking up Brad. I have a client first thing and then I have important paperwork to file and a new eBay clients stuff to start working through.

I was thinking today about my purpose in life. I was thinking about my clients and how much I believe digestive health is key to overall health and now with the microbiome coming into knowledge that will only be proved more so. But then I see how spiritual/energetic health and psyche/subconscious health affects our bodies and lives dramatically as well. Add to that the BDSM and how fond I am of that, also as a tool for health.

So what am I supposed to do here exactly? I am very diversified but I think I need to pick one thing and just go balls to the walls with it. Let’s see. BDSM is the most fun of course. Spiritual/energy healing is the most surreal and fascinating but helping people with their gastrointestinal issues; be they emotional, stress, physiological or what have you is very, very rewarding. All of these help me as well in some fashion.

I don’t have a clear answer. I know I need to start eating right, exercising, controlling my stress (as much as possible) and work on centering myself and fixing my own blocks and psyche. These are all things that will benefit me in all aspects of my life tremendously. So maybe that should be my focus right now.

Fortunately, Brad is back!! Which means regular sex again; which we all know makes me feel better, helps me function better. I’m not scared like I was a few days ago that he would retrigger me. I feel stronger now, even if I can’t shake this exhaustion. I may need to nap tomorrow. Like really. I generally am not a napper but I need to rebuild my energy. I’m feeling extraordinarily depleted right now.

Did I mention I was visualizing a vortex of energy above and around my house the other night…. trying to clear negative energy and reinforce light, love, healing and that morning I noticed a huge limb from a tree on the outskirts of my property had fallen overnight. There was no wind or rain or anything that could have obviously caused it to fall. Could have been humanly caused or could just be natures self pruning. It was a funny coincidence I took as a sign that my vortex worked. Hard to quantify these things. I like to think that’s what it means though. Lol

Sweet dreams. πŸ’€πŸŒ˜πŸ’‹πŸ™πŸ½πŸ’–

Author: porngirl3

I have always enjoyed reading and writing. Maybe because I have always been on the quiet and reclusive side; which most people may not guess at first glance or if seeing me in a social setting, especially around people I am comfortable with but it’s also not something I have an issue with. I need solitude to recharge. Writing gives me the peace and time to renew myself...here that is offered to you for your enjoyment and pleasure as well. I hope. Lol

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