Little

I never considered being a little before last week. “little” as in pretending to be a young child and having your play partner be the adult. I don’t know how it works truthfully and I also don’t know if this excludes or includes sex or if that’s an individual decision around the little’s vantage and desire. I wonder if I do play this if I would want it sexualized or not. I venture to say not.

I can’t see Brad capable of this though. He can sexualize just about anything. He has the emotional capacity of a 5 year old with the libido of a teenager and the humor of a grandpa, but then add in the mechanical aptitude of a idiot savant. This is simplifying him of course. He is much more than that. It’s an interesting mix. He intrigues me……still….that’s for sure.

I wonder though. Can I let myself be little? Being that way involves a certain level of vulnerability and play and light-heartedness. It would be nice to take off all these responsibilities and let someone else shoulder them all, even if just momentarily. To just pretend I have nothing better to do or think about then what I’d like to snack on and what color crayon to pick. No other care in the world and no real decisions to make. Mostly just responding to whatever stimuli is presented.

I just don’t know that I can be that purposely silly and inmature. I’ve been so serious for so long, I’m not sure I could even easily pretend to be a child anymore. Which may be the saddest part really.

I think it would help tremendously though. I can see it benefitting me, but I just can’t see it happening… especially not with Brad. I wonder if that type of therapy exists in real life. I could really see it being helpful. You’d have to be with some you trust that is nurturing and giving and doesn’t make it awkward. Someone that can put another person’s needs above their own. Generally that’s only people you pay or people that love you.

Well….. who knows. But it is starting to sound more and more fun and appealing to me. I’ll try almost anything once and this one seems doable….one day.

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Author: porngirl3

I have always enjoyed reading and writing. Maybe because I have always been on the quiet and reclusive side; which most people may not guess at first glance or if seeing me in a social setting, especially around people I am comfortable with but it’s also not something I have an issue with. I need solitude to recharge. Writing gives me the peace and time to renew myself...here that is offered to you for your enjoyment and pleasure as well. I hope. Lol

6 thoughts on “Little”

  1. It can be whatever you want or need it to be. Sometimes my little is sexual and sometimes it’s not. It depends what I need or how I’m feeling in that moment. It does take practice to be able to let go and be silly and playful -because you do feel vulnerable. It helps to have a partner who knows how to encourage little space. I was lucky enough to find a friend online who really helped me explore this and taught me a lot about littles and little space and helped me recognize my triggers. Now I’m helping my little boy explore and learn about his little/middle space. Maybe you can find someone like that?

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    1. Yes. That is what I love about the BDSM community. It’s allowed and almost expected to have different play partners for different needs. It makes sense. You’d want an experienced Big person to help you truly explore your little/middle person. It’s such an intriguing thought. I didn’t look down on little’s before. I just didn’t see the allure. Now I see it.

      The great thing is that Brad would have no issue with me trying to find a Big. Just as I’m sure he would have no issue outsourcing “making love” if he could. Lol.

      That’s a great suggestion though. I may throw some feelers out. It would take a while for me to feel comfortable with someone enough to allow myself to be that vulnerable though. We shall see.

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      1. You have already outsourced love making. You have given all of those things to others but go ahead and laugh about it. There will all be whores to fuck you but there won’t be another like me.

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      2. OMG. Seriously?? Where do you live? I will find you counseling? Do you go to church? Go see your pastor. Do you have a mental health or case worker? I’m not joking one bit. You need help. This is a serious cry for help. Or you have nothing g better to do and find messing with me hysterically funny which is just mean spirited and a waste of time. Either way. GET HELP!

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