I never considered being a little before last week. “little” as in pretending to be a young child and having your play partner be the adult. I don’t know how it works truthfully and I also don’t know if this excludes or includes sex or if that’s an individual decision around the little’s vantage and desire. I wonder if I do play this if I would want it sexualized or not. I venture to say not.
I can’t see Brad capable of this though. He can sexualize just about anything. He has the emotional capacity of a 5 year old with the libido of a teenager and the humor of a grandpa, but then add in the mechanical aptitude of a idiot savant. This is simplifying him of course. He is much more than that. It’s an interesting mix. He intrigues me……still….that’s for sure.
I wonder though. Can I let myself be little? Being that way involves a certain level of vulnerability and play and light-heartedness. It would be nice to take off all these responsibilities and let someone else shoulder them all, even if just momentarily. To just pretend I have nothing better to do or think about then what I’d like to snack on and what color crayon to pick. No other care in the world and no real decisions to make. Mostly just responding to whatever stimuli is presented.
I just don’t know that I can be that purposely silly and inmature. I’ve been so serious for so long, I’m not sure I could even easily pretend to be a child anymore. Which may be the saddest part really.
I think it would help tremendously though. I can see it benefitting me, but I just can’t see it happening… especially not with Brad. I wonder if that type of therapy exists in real life. I could really see it being helpful. You’d have to be with some you trust that is nurturing and giving and doesn’t make it awkward. Someone that can put another person’s needs above their own. Generally that’s only people you pay or people that love you.
Well….. who knows. But it is starting to sound more and more fun and appealing to me. I’ll try almost anything once and this one seems doable….one day.