I decided what I definitely needed today was to express my dominant side; sexually…… or rather through BDSM. With Brad gone I messages a couple boys who expressed interest in me dominating them. I was excited because one responded right away saying he was able and willing only to cancel on me a few hours later citing family obligations.
I wasn’t going to go balls to the walls on him but I just need to feel that energy. I need to feel that space in my head. I need to remember what it feels like to be in total control, even if it’s of someone else.
I am frustrated and I’ve been working all day and I’m tired and hungry too. I guess I’ll figure out something to eat and go home and watch a movie. I want to wake up refreshed. Tomorrow is cleaning day. Woot woot. Finally. My house will be clean….for 5 minutes at least. Lol
Been raining all day. You know….. the more I think about it the more I want to experience a slave. Maybe I need to really consider that an option. Like I have that kind of time though. 🙄😁😝. Wishful thinking.