The more I think about it……

I enjoy dating. I enjoy meeting people and I have only ever had one “bad” date and that because he was clearly on drugs or had severe ADHD. Even then he wasn’t horrible or unbearable and it’s always interesting talking to people and seeing where they are in life.

Which brings me back to Brad. He’s been gone for two weeks now. We seem to be talking and texting less especially now that we aren’t doing phone sex anymore, per my mental health professional. I thought it was a good call. We’ll see if I can keep heeding it.

I was reading an article last night about how women can’t compete with men in one simple area in the work place……time. Mostly because women who have families are generally still the ones doing most of the errands, household chores and child rearing. The article went to explain that most women justify this to themselves by saying that their men do some things and it could be worse. Joy! πŸ™„

Statistically men do, at most, about 35% of the workload. At 30% men feel they are doing equal. So that extra five percent is for the real go-getters I guess. Lol. Now granted I do all the work around here and the house is always a mess. But I can keep my studio pretty immaculate and I’m happy with that. I’ve only got so many hours and so much energy and chores are not very high on my must do list. They just aren’t and they will never be; not as long as I have kiddos home at least.

All this to say I don’t know that I will get married again. Let’s step ahead even. Let’s say….I am financially solvent, single and have the time to date. I just don’t see it anymore realistically. It took me a long time…… years to have a boyfriend and as much as it is great sometimes….. I can’t see it going into marriage. I just can’t.

But………. I’ve got too much going on right now to even consider dating again. And I do have Brad, and even if we downgrade our thing to just friends with benefits then that will still be really good. I’m not even trying to think that far ahead anymore. I’m not sure what the future holds. Right now more than anything I just need stability for myself and my kiddo’s. That’s my only focus right now and also trying to maintain my sanity amidst all the stresses of life.

I was also reading an article where Warren Buffett says that he affirms that the number one attribute needed in life is ethics/integrity. I absolutely agree, but is it easier or harder when you’re rich? My mother said to me to consider prostitution if I had to. I laughed….. I’m not sure why. I know she meant it. It’s just that I never expected her to say that I guess. Prostitution isn’t my thing. I would go pro-domme way before that.

But I think for now I want to concentrate on my spiritual training more. I’m hoping that laser reiki class starts this summer. I had really been looking forward to that and I’m super bummed it got delayed. There are a lot of “healers” already available in the area, and in the world I think. So I have to figure out for myself what I bring to the table. Right now results aren’t consistent, which again probably has more to do with what is ordained…. than with me, but how can I charge for something I’m not sure I can deliver. Sometimes it’s gang-buster’s and sometimes it’s lackluster. Although to be fair in the cases I can’t seem to help people they also don’t seem to really want my help…..deep down. πŸ€·πŸ½β€β™€οΈ

You know…..I’m half way through my life…..if I’m that lucky, and I still feel I have soo much to learn, to see, to experience.

I have an interview today for a part time sales job. If it’s not something wretched then I can probably sell it. I’m more worried about the sales tactics. If I can be left alone to meet my quota once I’m trained I should do fine. I think tomorrow’s interview will be better. It’s for Wyndham and while I don’t have a timeshare I do love them. Frankly though I hate peddling shit, but sales is the one of the few jobs that pays well part-time and isn’t physically demanding. Mental challenges I can handle. I’m also applying for some part-time secretarial jobs but you’re hard pressed to find them at the pay scale I need and there are no additional incentives or bonuses as there are with sales.

Then I have 5 clients booked this week already and one health expo. I also want to keep working my gym routine in. It helps my peace of mind a lot. Even if it hasn’t affected the scale as of yet. Ok. So that was my long life wrap-up. It’s Monday. Go team go!!! Let’s do this!!

Happy Monday! πŸ™‚πŸ’–πŸ’‹πŸ™πŸ½πŸŒžπŸ€—πŸŒˆπŸ₯°

Author: porngirl3

I have always enjoyed reading and writing. Maybe because I have always been on the quiet and reclusive side; which most people may not guess at first glance or if seeing me in a social setting, especially around people I am comfortable with but it’s also not something I have an issue with. I need solitude to recharge. Writing gives me the peace and time to renew myself...here that is offered to you for your enjoyment and pleasure as well. I hope. Lol

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