I just want to be happy

Ultimately

Don’t we all?

To me that means having an optimistic heart

Except that can’t happen while also being:

Always on guard

Scared

Panicked

Looking over my shoulder

Making sure I’m always on top of everything

Stressed the fuck out basically

It can’t.

It won’t

It doesn’t.

But if I can just live in the moment as best as possible

Without ant fears

And just handle whatever comes

As it comes

Listening to my heart along the way

Fuck……

That’s more than good enough

I think

Now…….

It’s just a matter of walking the walk and not just talking the talk.

And that’s hard as fuck sometimes

I know that

I live that

I understand

But that’s my stance

And I’m trying dammit

This is the best I have

Hail Mary

Let it be good enough

Author: porngirl3

I have always enjoyed reading and writing. Maybe because I have always been on the quiet and reclusive side; which most people may not guess at first glance or if seeing me in a social setting, especially around people I am comfortable with but it’s also not something I have an issue with. I need solitude to recharge. Writing gives me the peace and time to renew myself...here that is offered to you for your enjoyment and pleasure as well. I hope. Lol

6 thoughts on “I just want to be happy”

  1. life is just to damn short to allow everything to get in the way! when you awaken in the morning ! take a deep breath,quietly listen to the wind. let your mind wonder. smell the smells,listen to the birds chirp. rid your mind of all negativity. fear nothing or no one. say to yourself, no matter how rough or how bad it may be. i will not quit! i will not give up! there are so many out there that depend on me…

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      1. Yes. That would be very nice indeed. But I do so need to be topped or dominated as well. Which complicates the matter a bit because I am very, very wild and extreme in both realms.

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