It’s been a lot of stress lately and yesterday kind of just capped it off and sent me into a bit of a tailspin. I’m just wondering am I doing it all wrong?

I mean everything too. Everything!! Personally, professionally, sexually. I suppose self-evaluation is a good thing but this feels more like a form of defeatism. Like what am I doing with my life? Do I have it all wrong? Am I failing? Do I need to completely redirect everything? Change course completely?

I’ve put all my energy and focus in one direction. And it feels like the light went out at the end of the tunnel and I’m completely lost right now. I think I’ll climb into bed and cry myself to sleep without the kid noticing (I hope). And maybe tomorrow I’ll wake up like Adele. I suppose that’s the hope. The hope I can find the strength within myself to keep on keeping on.

Wishing you all the same. πŸ’‹

Author: porngirl3

I have always enjoyed reading and writing. Maybe because I have always been on the quiet and reclusive side; which most people may not guess at first glance or if seeing me in a social setting, especially around people I am comfortable with but it’s also not something I have an issue with. I need solitude to recharge. Writing gives me the peace and time to renew that is offered to you for your enjoyment and pleasure as well. I hope. Lol

9 thoughts on “Struggling”

  1. We all have self-debt and a sense of negativity from time to time. Are you children safe, healthy, and do they speak to you? Are your clients appreciative of the service you provide? I don’t too much more advice, but you seem like a pretty levelheaded woman to me. And were I single and lived near you, I would probably ask you out.

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    1. Awwwwww…

      Thanks David. I’m struggling with so many issues and while I generally can feel optimistic and clear headed between dealing with these sexual impulses and my finances I’m almost at my breaking point. But I’m still going day by day. I’m just getting tired of playing this “life” game this way. It is starting to feel like a useless endeavor. Not being suicidal. Just feeling very defeated.


      1. Thanks David. I truly appreciate your care and taking the time to make me feel better. I know you have your own health issues and life distress. I am grateful for you. From your lips to God’s ears. I am hopeful and pushing forward. For sure. πŸ’‹πŸ™πŸ½πŸ’–


  2. What sorts of major life changes are you contemplating? This actually sounds kind of cool, that it would even be possible to revolutionize your own life. Almost sounds like something I need.

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