I honestly get it. We are all doing our best here. I mean even if a person’s hardest decision in life is what color tile to pick I get it. Their life is not less than anyone else’s. To them that is significant. And we each on all sides of every spectrum make decisions we believe we need or have to make for our own good. Is anyone exempt from feeling that?
I can imagine a few are like we imagine someone, perhaps like Paris Hilton, to be….. but that seems applauded in our day and age anyway. I kinda get it and I really kinda don’t.**
Doesn’t everyone have insecurities? No one is exempt. Are they? That is how the devil taunts you. It’s all part of the human experience it seems to me. Still funny how it can go from frivolous to absolutely dire in mere seconds. And absolutely no one is exempt from that one.
At least as long as death comes I suppose.
Although I feel now with absolute certainty something lies beyond both heaven and hell; but…… it still makes me profoundly glad they exist. I still call out to God, who I have known my whole life I believe. Who I love so profoundly. Who helps me in the spirit world, my world inside, every time I have asked it seems to me.
Which also just makes me more aware of the things I still need to work on in life. Jesus said “turn the other cheek” right? I follow this not only because Jesus said this and everything I’ve read about Jesus is such beauty and hits me deeply to the bottom of my heart. (As does a lot of what other great historical figures have said. Do I think Jesus was above them all…….well. IDK. How am I supposed to know that? It’s all hearsay. Really.)
I have to believe what I feel in my heart is real and everything I’ve heard attributed to Jesus feels in my heart to be real. I don’t need to justify that. I’ve not read it all but enough to have reverence. Reverence is a strange thing. We give it so much to things that are of little real importance in life. As a way to manipulate each other it seems sometimes but also as a ritualistic thing of big sentimentality.
Again. Not something I completely understand. But some things; like heaven and hell. Like God* and Evil. I know so little and yet……..here I am. Trying to make an understanding of what I have learned.
It’s not always right. How could it be? But it’s always heartfelt, what I feel is right and what I believe in the moment.
It so hard to be just me. Why is that not enough?And then …..on top of everything. Also boy problems.
_——–*Whatever God(s)/Goddess(es) you believe in.
**I don’t understand how being vacuous and self-centered is so glorified in society and yet as a Domme being selfish is a forte. But ultimately being a Domme is a game, a fun part of a dynamic and shouldn’t involve actual (real/damaging) cruelty. Whereas being egomaniacal and closed off from empathy and compassion seems something completely different to me.