I tried to shoot for a minute of nothingness and ended up with 7 minutes of pure mental mayhem along with recognizing my shoulders were very tense.
I’m having to change my mental dialogue of “it’s hard” and “this is impossible” to “it will get easier” and “I just need to keep trying”.
The first two bits are my default but they just aren’t very helpful. The last two at least allow for the possibility of it happening. That’s basically affirmation and positive self talk in a nutshell.
But the mind is a powerful computer that is never on standby. It’s always thinking, processing, analyzing, dreaming, monitoring, visualizing, engaging. Turning it off is difficult, to say the least. But possible and I think being able to get there can lead to a new world of possibilities.
Open up passages for new thoughts, new information to download, new visions to come into understanding and being.
And at the very least it gets me to a place of calmness, if I let it. It can also make me keenly aware of my ability to panic. “I’m doing this wrong.” “Why is this so hard?” “Why can’t I shut it all down?” “Why can’t I (insert stress inducing thought/demand)?”
It’s an exercise in allowing what is, to be, while just observing what my mind does and then redirecting it gently and compassionately over and over to nothing. Seemingly a very futile exercise I grant you. But if I allow it to, it’s actually very insightful as to how my processing works, as to what I tell myself and (even more importantly) how I tell it to myself.
These things are not negligible. In fact, these things are key to my mental health and well being and so often it’s not something I pay much attention to. I’ve realized.
So today I’m going to aim for 3 tries at nothingness. Which is probably going to be something closer to just an exploration of self and mind and maybe some relaxation or at least some acceptance. This is me! The me that has nothing to hide behind and nothing to posture for. It’s me stripped down to just the body and brain and emotions that lie beneath all the crap we distract ourselves with all day long.
Or at least that’s my take.
Hoping your take on life today brings you some happiness.