2 Theories -updated-

I have some theories I want to throw out there. One involves the appendix and the other pedophilia/rape/violent behavior.

Theory 1. The medical establishment is quite unsure what the appendix is for and quite often find the need to take it out before it bursts. In the naturopath community some doctors believe that the appendix creates a venom for parasites.

Right below the appendix is a pocket that parasites are known to inhabit because it is like a tiny alcove. I propose that parasites knowing that a venom comes out of the appendix create a barrier so it can no longer excrete fluids. This over time inevitably can cause the appendix to burst. This also explains why my research as well as anecdotal evidence suggests that you can avoid an appendectomy by having a series of colonics or a very aggressive enema protocol.

It makes absolutely perfect sense to me and all things align to form a perfect hypothesis, but I doubt it will ever gain traction in the medical establishment. There is zero money to be made from shooting water up your butt. Zero! Well. Not zero. Lol. It is after all what I do for a living but as far as western medicine I just don’t see it embracing the practice at all. Unfortunately. Maybe reluctantly they may since the microbiome is being attributed to more and more diseases and afflictions almost daily it seems.

I’m a less is more person. If I can find natural ways to achieve the same or better results as western medicine I’m all for it. Even if it is a more laborious path. I refuse to be a guinea pig and ATM to these pharmaceutical companies. Absolutely refuse.


Theory 2

So alcohol and drug abuse is a form of self abuse. It’s a form of internalizing your problems. Right? It’s an escape… generally from: pain, boredom, depression, anxiety, stress, feeling overwhelmed, inadequate, etc. etc. etc.

Pedophilia/rape/violent behavior is the opposite. It is an externalization of a person’s issues. They do not look within for relief they look outside of themselves to seek their fix, the pleasure, the power, the feelings they need to feel, what it is they need to inflict or receive from another. With little to no regard for the other person they involve.

So one directly abuses oneself and one directly abuses others*. But the former has a lot of help at their disposal. Meetings, clinics, therapists, outpatient and inpatient establishments set up to help those that internalize their problems.

But who help those that cause pain to others? It isn’t until they are in the system that it gets addressed. And then how? They get locked up for a determined amount of time and then set free under some form of half-ass supervision.**

I remember trying desperately to find help for someone close to me. I called inpatient places but they only catered to convicts and worked directly with jails and mental hospitals. I called and emailed countless therapist, sex addiction centers, and the such. I found absolutely no help anywhere.*** Ask yourselves. How can this be that we let people that harm children, women, elderly, the most vulnerable in society fend for themselves?

Because it’s just going to go away or not happen if we turn a blind eye? Yeah. That works really well. I don’t get this planet. I don’t get our social norms. I don’t get why if we are suppose to have this complex social network between us humans it’s so damn useless sometimes. It’s meant to do what exactly? Help us? I don’t see it. I just don’t see it.

I was watching the clouds today and wondering; do they have an intricate social network? Then I thought of the water they hold and wondered…. does water have an intricate social network? What would that look like? Do the particles that line the clouds enjoy higher status than the dense center parts? Do droplets of water form cliques?

It all made me laugh and yet made me so very sad too. This world so often makes me cry tears both of joy and tears of pain. So often I can’t help but wonder why the world is such a fucked up place. Inevitably I stop myself and refocus on the good. There is thankfully plenty of that too.

Ho hum……

Today……was today and tomorrow will be then….. soon now. Part of me wants to just be a neutral observer in this life and part of me wants to have expectations and fruition of grandeur, of ease, of happiness, of boundless energy and joyous divinity. And then I laugh at myself, because I feel like I know nothing, absolutely nothing about how life truly works. But here I still am, still just happy to be here. Still just trying to figure it all out.

Tired though. So tired.

Goodnight fellow earth dwellers. Fare thee well. Sweet dreams.




*Of course these things aren’t exclusive and a person can be a spectrum or combination of these extremes.

**There is anger management help, I’m not sure how effective it is, but at least that is available and mandated sometimes.

***By the time I found a psychologist that specialized in what was needed couldn’t get them to go. I can’t imagine how she helps though. As far as I know this is one of the most difficult desires to abolish, but if you go on Reddit (which I haven’t) there are threads from people who feel highly sexualized by these desires and thoughts but stop themselves because they know the damage it causes. Yet they must suffer alone and with little help to maintain their “sobriety”.****

There is so little research and help for something that has been happening since the dawn of time I’m sure. Why? 200,000+ years and counting and we are all still a bunch of idiots. Seriously!! Idiots. In this idiotic world ran by idiotic people and headed to where? Nowhere better it seems. Unfortunately.

Just plans to expand into outer space because we need to put more trash and idiots out into the universe. Watch out space, you’re no longer safe from our destructive and pillaging nature.

****I really feel this type of “other abuse” isn’t just about sex and sexual desires, it isn’t truly about satisfaction. It’s far beyond that, but where is the science to it? Who knows? Let’s just let them figure it out for themselves. Good luck. Say hi to your victims for us all. Society let you all down. Three cheers for the mass failure. But hey. Coechella is hella fun. Heroine is readily available, might as well cut the middle man and just snort straight fentanyl. Let’s keep arguing about the climate. And of course going to church Sunday absolves you of all your sins…. don’t worry about being a decent human being. That’s too much work, just come pray one day. That’s fine.

It’s sooo bad, so bad that I just can’t help but laugh. Thank God I don’t have to take any of this shit all that seriously, because then I really do think I’d kill myself. I really do.

Pass the popcorn please. I’m sitting today out. Lol. jk. I’m a single mom. Ain’t no rest for the dregs of society. πŸ€ͺ🀣😝

Author: porngirl3

I have always enjoyed reading and writing. Maybe because I have always been on the quiet and reclusive side; which most people may not guess at first glance or if seeing me in a social setting, especially around people I am comfortable with but it’s also not something I have an issue with. I need solitude to recharge. Writing gives me the peace and time to renew myself...here that is offered to you for your enjoyment and pleasure as well. I hope. Lol

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