That’s my word of the day. So often I see people that go around feeling like just existing needs an apology. Sorry is every other word out of their mouth. This isn’t to say we can’t all use some self-awareness, compassion and self-improvement. But we need to extend that love to ourselves first….and then make adjustments accordingly, if wanted and necessary.
My youngest has this new thing where she says she is fat. She has a tiny pooch of a tummy and cute big cheeks. She suffers from constipation and has added baby fat still left. All I tell her is “you are perfect just the way you are”. She, of course, doesn’t believe me. At 6 she already believes she has a physical standard to achieve that needs to be met. It absolutely enrages me. It makes me want to take her iPad away, but she would see that as punishment.
I wish I could impart to her the wisdom of being unapologetic. God created you. Maybe you could be a better version of this master plan but currently you are here, so effectively it’s who you were meant to be. Like this. Here. Presently! So own it, enjoy it and let’s move on.
Now let’s be real here.
I like everyone else walking this planet hates assholes. Selfish, idiots that populate the earth with this “me, mine only” mentality. But even then when it’s done transparently, when they own it, when it’s all out in the open at least I can respect that they are owning their shit and being honest about it.
Eventually everyone pays their dues. Funny how while Karma does exist in this life some are left to be collected from at the very end. And it’s hard to understand the full consequences of that when it’s something you don’t see, fully comprehend or even believe. This is why all I can do is laugh and wish people that blatantly rob, hurt, spew venom into the world that they figure it out and rectify before their end comes.
I guess that’s the only benefit to having seen hell. It’s something you truly don’t wish on anyone, but secretly over the years I’m more and more glad is there. I’m thinking maybe because it takes any thoughts of needing to pass judgement and police the world out of my hands. But then again maybe this speaks more to the corruption of my own heart than theirs.
Oh well…I don’t care. I’m learning and trying and doing the best I can here.
I will remain unapologetic.