Gooey and vulnerable

Be careful what you ask for. This has been driven home time and time and time again lately by almost every healer I’ve spoken to and every movie on spirituality I’ve seen.


I love love. I do. I’m a sucker for a good rom-com. I love weddings. I could sit and watch two people in love interacting all day long. It doesn’t get old. Ever. That I can recall.


Why does being vulnerable feel almost painful sometimes? Being exposed emotionally just feels or can feel so scary. It can bring up all these fears, anxieties and past trauma but if that vulnerability is treated with care and sensitivity….if it is met with reciprocation and love, it can mend parts of us we didn’t even know needed healing.

It’s a wacky thing where vulnerability is seen almost as a fault because the world can be such a cruel place. Funny that it seems that those that try to protect us most from being hurt are usually the ones that cause us to shut down and be fortresses.


I remember as a young 20 year old entering what I thought was a career path in the hospitality industry I comported myself in the utmost professional manner. I was careful with my attire, tone, mannerisms, verbiage. I was essentially never really my authentic self but someone I thought I had to be to succeed.

Now…..I am anything but that polished professional self. I am just authentically me, or I truly try to let myself be that. And that has brought me so much more happiness than any accolades and commendation and ladder ring progressions ever did or could provide.

Vulnerability can make one feel exposed and raw, especially when possibly mishandled by others; but…….it truly is the closest and deepest way to reach into your truest self and let that person be. It is your most authentic you and it may not be pretty and polished and emotion free, but it has this beauty nothing else in the world can come close to achieving…….and doesn’t everyone want to be beautiful (inside)?

Author: porngirl3

I have always enjoyed reading and writing. Maybe because I have always been on the quiet and reclusive side; which most people may not guess at first glance or if seeing me in a social setting, especially around people I am comfortable with but it’s also not something I have an issue with. I need solitude to recharge. Writing gives me the peace and time to renew that is offered to you for your enjoyment and pleasure as well. I hope. Lol

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