I was watching standard TV today. I forget how much I hate it. 4 channels sell products. 3 channels have gruesome shows on, one talking about a little girls kidnapping, Cops, etc. Some old school shows like Bonanza and then of course Elmo. And about 6 channels are religion. Abysmal. And you’re forced to sit through commercials. I settled for a talk show and of course they are talking about 3 black churches having been burnt down in the last few days.
I was talking to someone who said that on average we hear over a thousand negative messages a day. I dare say that number seems low to me. I wish……(so many things but one of them is) that we lived in a world that valued happiness, true happiness in the way that really matters; not material things, not money, not sex, not drugs, but in community and in nature and in ourselves and our well-being.
Deep, true contentment. I wish we cherished the things that are of true value in the world: honor, compassion, the greater good, being of service, being part of something bigger than ourselves, helping others, helping the world (our environment, our neighbors, mankind). We are capable of so much more than we settle for.
I try not to dwell on things that I can’t change. That is after all the serenity prayer. I focus on the things I can. Brad and I are hanging out today. Tomorrow is the last day to apply to the local naturopathic school to get in to the fall semester. I think I’ll jaunt down there and see if I could possibly qualify. It’s a huge endeavor but it’s worth checking out.
Truthfully though. The more I think about it the more I think I’d rather go through a shamanic program or spiritual training program. I was thinking yesterday “what do I really want?” and immediately the thought came to mind that I would love to travel the world and then the second thought popped up. “What do you have to offer the world?” and the question caught me a bit off guard truthfully.